Wicked Kiss

He's looking at me emotionless. I don't know but I'm nervous from the way he's looking at me. It seems like he's angry. But why? We were fine yesterday and last night. "Morning "I greeted him with energy having a hope that he might be only needing my mood to lift him up too.

He didn't immediately answer, he just looked at me. I stayed there for a bit waiting for his action but he didn't do anything.

What is happening to him? After what happened yesterday, we are okay, but what is happening right now?

"Hey!" I said a bit loud. I look closely of the way he blinked his eyes. He seems like in deep thoughts.

I can't help but to think. Did I do something wrong that he's acting like this? If I did, I can't even remember anything aside from yesterday and we are okay. "I-is there a p-problem? " I asked a little anxious.

He just turned to me and sighed. Take note that he didn't even answered me.

"What's the matter? " 'I asked, I can't even help my shaking voice.

He only went directly to the wooden cabinet and grabbed a white t-shirt. After wearing, that's the only time he turned to me.

"Get dressed, we have work." He said formally and left the Villa, leaving me confused and shaking.

I stopped for a bit. What did I do? Did I really do something wrong? what is happening.

I covered my mouth with my hands to prevent from sobbing. It hurts, what is happening. Can someone explain?

Why does it seem like he's angry at me? Why does it seem like I did a very bad thing that made him angry? I can't remember anything like that, or he's just not in the mood. Why am I even so dramatic?

I wiped the tears on my cheeks and tried to stand up. Even though my legs were shaking, I still tried.

I grabbed those dirty clothes I have on the floor. And after everything, I went out and walked faster because I still have a project to finish.

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Because I did so many things today, I part timely forgot about Astrair. I really tried to keep myself busy and play some teasing with my team, but every time I glance to their areas, I could see that he's enjoying with some other people. Why does it seems like I am the only one that have a problem here? What did I really do?

It was already on the afternoon when Sir Al called everyone because of some announcement. I am feeling so low and down but I still pushed myself to be strong. Focus, Erza. Focus.

"I would like to thank all of you, especially for those who lead the project. Thank you very much everyone for making this project this successful. Actually, I can't imagine that, in just Two and half month, we are able to ALMOST finish the whole building specially on supervising the whole resort. Thank you everyone." Sir Alstreim said.

"And aside from that. I would like to inform you that this project will left and be manage by Grayson Fuenterebela because I need to be back immediately in Los Angeles for a very important matter. Also, my brother Astrair can't also handle anymore because he is coming with me. " Sir Al added.

I almost can't breathe from the last part Sir Alstreim said. Why? Why this sudden? I didn't even know, he didn't tell me about this.

"But he can decide in his own if he'll come with me or stay. It's his choice," Sir Al said and look at his brother that seemed to be having a deep thought again.

".... right, brother? " Sir Al added.

Astrair is giving us an emotionless face. He didn't even care about what his brother is talking about in front of us.

It ended and my heart feels like I am sinking in the ocean. I can't breathe from pain. It's hard.

This is the first time that I ever felt this kind of pain all my life. I didn't expect this to happen. I... I never expected this.

While I was on the Villa, I am crying silently. I don't want my team to know because I'm ashamed of myself and my decisions. This is what I get for being so weak.

I want to call Sting so badly. I want to call Sting and told him a lot of things that happened here in this Island.

But in this situation, it will only create chaos if I will. Even mentioning a name of a male specie he's already over reacting. How much more if he finds out that I am already in love with someone.

And of course, my phone's battery is so drain. I think I have to change it after this project. So, its impossible for me to call him.

Until now I don't have any idea why Astrair is acting so cold to me. And I know it myself that I didn't do anything.

I have to ask him about this. I have to. We are so sweet these past few days and he's the one who keeps on flirting with me. So, I have to ask him right now.

And then he decided to go with his brother in LA? He will leave me? In this kind of treatment?

I stood up and went to his Villa's direction.

I can't let this day end without a proper talk. He's the man I am in love with, he's the man I am only capable of loving. So I need his words at least. Because I deserve it.

He's the only man that I am surrendering like this stupidly.

I may be so hard at first, but it's my ways of protecting myself from any possible pain like this.

I am scared to be hurt but right now I am hurting a lot.

This pain I am feeling right now is making my whole body numb. Making me cry but there's no tears. I don't understand.

Sir Cali was right. "When you are infatuated, it makes you feel that you are in love. But the truth is, you are just imagining silly things. If you think that being in love is easy, then you are WRONG. If you are going to love someone, ready yourselves for the consequences, be ready to experience the never-ending PAIN! "I laughed when I remembered our professor's words.

I can't even remember why we ended up talking like that, all that I can remember is that we only asked him about his opinion of love.

When I reached at his villa, he's not there. I even went inside to make sure but I only failed myself.

I am disappointed while walking back at our place when I heard some moans.

Moans of someone having sex.

I turned to look at the villa of Breezy and Emerald. I immediately got nervous.

I saw Breezy sitting on the side while biting her nails.

"Julia, have you seen Sir Astrair?" I asked softly.

She's looking at me as if she's telling me that "Are you stupid or just deaf."

I gulper and waited for the possible answer of this human in front of me. "Inside, eating my friend's pussy." She said as if it's normal. It's literal that my eyes widen from what she said.

"You mean..." I didn't even finish when she added something.

"I grew up in United States, it's just natural for us to talk about that. Yes, they're pleasuring themselves inside. Happy?"

I don't know what's making this bitch so aggressive and mean. But the fact that she said that made me so angry.

"That's not true. You're lying. "I said bravely even though... I can clearly hear Astrair's loud moans.

My heart feels like it's being ripped into two from what I am currently hearing.

"Hear that? If you're deaf then get the fuck out." Said the fucking shrimp. My heart is bleeding right now, it's making my insides crumpled.

Because of my rage, I pulled Julia's hair and dropped her harshly on the floor that made her scream so loud.

"Eeeeeiiiiiiiihhhhhhhh!!!!!" She shouted so I run away from their immediately.

How dare he. He's a stupid useless man.

He told me a lot of things but it ended up like this. He tricked me; he tricked the hell out of me.

I offered myself to him and it seems like he junked it just that.

I refused.. but he proved himself and chased me. I fell and right now I'm suffering, ge tricked me.

He used me, he only used me, he said he loves me, he lied to me.

I believed him especially that I thought he will be the aid of my ugly past, but he lied to me.

I surrendered myself to him, I gave up everything for him. I thought everything will be fine but right now what happened. It hurts a lot.

When I reached the villa, I didn't intend but I stepped on Clara, that made her sit and looked at me.

"I-it hurts." The only thing I said and sobbed.

"Shhhhh...." Clara comforted me.

I cried silently on her shoulder. I don't fall easily, but now that I did, it sucks. My ugly past is full of pain, and right now it's another additional pain. Why does my life so unlucky?

"Just cry it all out." Clara whispered. I cried even more, but with limit so. I won't wake everyone up.

"I'm ashamed, but it hurts." I said.

This is so painful. Is this what professor Clai talked about? Is this the consequences?

This is the very last thing I want to experience my whole life.

"It's the first time I am seeing you cry, Miss. And I know the fact that this is too much. Remember that it's not on your personality to show everyone your weakness. But it doesn't mean that you cried, then you're weak. It's okay to cry because you are not tricking your emotions, this is one of the bravest things a person can do."

I smiled amidst everything.

"Thanks God, you are here. " I said and closed my eyes.

There's still tomorrow waiting for me, and I'll make sure that this won't affect me.

Especially that...

I am Erza. I have been through from this in the past. I love him, I love him so much... but,

I still have a life to continue. With or without him, I will continue.

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