Not A Saint (ENGLISH VERSION)

"ARE YOU going to take this apartment? One month deposit, one month advance. Eight thousand in all," the landlady said after we entered this four-storey building.

It looks like a condominium from the outside but when I check inside it just looks like an apartment. But I can bear this than nothing at all. It is inside a compound and the security looks tight because there is a security guard down before you can finally enter the main gate of the establishment.

I also saw CCTV's on every corner. Maybe that Bellevera won't be able to follow me here anymore. The car that Brent just gave me is all I have to take from the mansion. There is a large parking area in the middle, opposite the building. I just didn't check if there were CCTV's as well. Those are the things I need in case that man bothers me again.

I don't know if he's numb and he hasn't even realized that I don't like him. I don't like people like him because he's really disgusting. He pisses me off and I can stand to see him either.

"When are you moving?" she asked me as I handed her the money and quickly pocketed it.

"The day after tomorrow," I replied, still looking around without gazing at her.

There is a kitchen and bathroom that are just the right size, enough for one person. The ambiance inside is also nice. Only some useful things are what is lacking. There are also windows and the air conditioners are functioning too. The room is also spacious. There is a small receiving area or living room for guests. I already have the thought of what things should be fit inside the apartment.

I'd rather struggle with this than having Bellevera on the same roof.

"What's your job again?"

"Flight steward." I turned to her at that moment.

"Your face is familiar. You look like a model and it feels like I saw your face in a magazine. I just don't know where. "

"Are you sure the security here is tight?" I am still having some doubts. I just wanted some assurance.

"Of course. CCTVs are all working. If ever it doesn't work, report it immediately." She was a fat woman and making her fan swaying as she carries it. Her body is also complete with jewelry. There is a large round ring-shaped gold earring, a thick gold necklace, and a porcelain bracelet around her hand. "If you don't have any questions, this is the key to this apartment. I would also like to remind you that the payment cannot be late because my husband who is a member of the mafia, will might your payment. Is that clear?"

I nodded at what she said then accepted the key. Am I look like a late payer? And I don't tend to run away from any debt.

"Don't worry, I'll pay you on time," I said in resignation.

"Good," she said then went straight to the stairs.

I also followed her going down the staircase. The room I got was only on the second floor so I wouldn't get too tired going up and down. I just need electric equipment to make the apartment call my home

It would be better if I have my own house. But in my situation, I still can't buy mine. I still don't have enough money. One or two more contracts with a modeling agency and I might be able to buy.

My decision is finale not to mention anything to my manager about this. She can't help me either. It is enough that I just do it myself.

I'm tired of being hurt and trusting people because it's not just someone like Bellevera I should trust at all.

I went straight to the car I borrowed from my manager. It's bad if she might notice I've been missing for a long time.

I inserted the key into the keyhole, turned on the engine, and drove off. The distance from here to my manager's house took two hours and this was much closer to the airlines where I work. The sound of some planes flying could even be heard from here.

This is really what I chose when I saw on social media that there is a nearby vacant apartment. I grabbed it right away before anyone else could get it. I located the address and brought me here.

The guards seemed friendly and smiled even though I still didn't like their smiles. I feel like every smile they give makes sense-steamy and rude.

Ever since Brent died that's how I think of all men. Nothing is different, all are the same.

I passed by my biological dad's grave, I just prayed for a while for him to guide me in all of my decisions and I went straight here.

EXITING from where I was passing I could see the bumper-to-bumper traffic. I don't know if I can take Roa's car going home early. I'm sure she will start to get wonder why I'm taking so long even though she knows where my biological father is buried.

I started to think of. Right!

I'll just pretend that I also passed Brent's grave even though it was a horrible path. And it never crossed my mind to visit his tomb.

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I just turned on the radio to relieve my boredom while waiting for the car in front of me to move.

An acoustic song soared inside the car. When I looked at the time it was past five o'clock in the afternoon. It has been four hours since I said asked going out from Roa. When the traffic cleared slightly, I immediately stepped on the gas to

move.

Once I have moved my belongings, I will open up the freedom I am looking for. I can have fun, go to the bar alone and no one will stop all my decisions in life even mommy. A free smile flashed on my lips at those thoughts. But I also recovered immediately when I remembered my mother's face.

What will mommy's reaction be when she finds out that her kind and obedient daughter will disobey her and what she wants will not happen?

Mommy wants money, why doesn't she just get married instead? I don't want to do it honestly and I don't want to be tied to anyone. I only had my freedom at this moment and mom trying to tie me back to something I had never dreamed of. If I had a family I wouldn't want to be with someone like Bellevera. I would rather rot my beauty, and grow old alone than marry a man whose I don't know what kind of man is.

I braked hard when the car in front suddenly stopped. I accidentally turned to my left while gripping the steering wheel.

I regret what I did. Since the windshield of Roa's car wasn't tinted, I could clearly see what was inside the other car that was almost next to the car I am driving. I immediately put the shades on my eyes as I was carrying it. It's bad if he might get to see me.

I could clearly see the woman's doing inside the car. I was the only one whose car is close to them and that car window was also less tinted. I was horrified and stunned at that moment when I can clearly clarify my mind that her face doing something on the man's lap-the driver.

Even if I don't give a full definition, I already know what miracle they are doing while in traffic. The woman seems to be enjoying the taste, while the man is even closing his eyes and the mouth making a slightly O-shaped. Even though it didn't reach my ears, I'm sure he was moaning with pleasure.

I hurried to move as the car in front of me moved. My hands kept tapping impatiently. I was so disgusted with what I witnessed. Are they thinking of a live show? Isn't the hotel, or motel trendy and they can't stand it longer and just make it anywhere?

I was desperate to run my car fast getting out of that dirty scene when I saw the driver of the car and none other than Bellevera.

Fortunately, he hadn't noticed that the car I was parked in was just next to his car. I made sure the car window was closed and even the door was locked. I don't want him to get to see me and find the way I am heading now. When the green light came on, I quickly stepped on the gas and moved speedily to avoid that car.

It was as if I am going to have a fever anytime soon as I am seeing that obscene obscurity. I could feel the shaking of my hands and the trembling of my knees. I felt like I am a prey hunt by a wild animal.

I clung tightly to the steering wheel hoping that he would not have seen me and would not have followed me. With those thoughts playing in my mind right now, my heartbeat skips fast. I was afraid that all of a sudden there was a knock on the door of my car, not the cops because of beating the red light but Bellevera be. Or he would suddenly break the car window to open the door and pull me out when I insisted on not going with him.

When the cars stopped again my car also stopped but not my heartbeat. I leaned back, putting my back in the chair, and shut my eyes tightly for a moment so I could gain strength and calm myself down.

If my request will be granted again, I hope he will not find me. I hope Bellevera and I don't cross paths this time.

It's okay even if mommy sees me. Just don't not him.

Just a turn then straight ahead and going to a long road along in the subdivision where Roa lives.

At the changing of light into the red, I pressed the brake hard again and stopped. With each pounding of my chest were the fear and hallucination that he might suddenly come. I could no longer stop my chest from throbbing hard like it was drumming at too much speed. It's like I'm going to have a heart attack with this nervousness. I had no choice but to stop the car for a while and to open the car window because I was having trouble breathing. The aircon inside the car wouldn't be enough which made me feel like I was suffocating.

Until suddenly a sound of knocks from the window of my car screeching my ears. I could clearly see his dark and smiling face. It's like a demon's smile. Scary. It is frightening. When I didn't open it he slammed the car window harder. The window was not immediately broken. He step-back and disappeared from my sight.

I took another deep breath. I think my imagination is too strong and my hallucinations are severe as Bellevera wasn't really around.

I was about to jump from my seat and shriek terrifyingly when suddenly a rock hit my car window, making it crack.

This is real. It is no longer just a hallucination.

He is real. It is not even an illusion.

He is coming for me.

Somebody help me. Please....