My Sister's Boyfriend

- But I'm not! I said harshly, almost hysterically. "We weren't even together at that time. I was just the sister-in-law and...

"I'm sorry for what I did, but I'm not totally sorry. I have Eduardo now.

"That's enough. It was almost a grumble, I crossed my arms at the table, trying to feel more firm having some support under my hands.

"It's not a matter of enough... I love my son. You have no idea what it's like to be a parent, to give yourself to a tiny little being right when he's born. When my son was born, it was like... The world smiled once again at me in the midst of so much... garbage. That doesn't change the fact that I missed you madly, Malu. But I had it to keep me going. But still I couldn't forget you.

"If I missed you so much, why didn't you go after me?" The question slipped out of my mouth and the only thing I could do was cover it up in fright. Why didn't I shut up? Half trembling I ran my hand over my face, Igor just watched me. "I tried my best to talk to you. Go after you. Your father wouldn't let me get close, keep in touch with you. And besides, I sent thousands of messages for Cecilia.

"I barely spoke to Cecilia.

-I know. I tried for your mom and... She didn't want to disturb you further. He said you were getting to know each other, that it was an important moment for you. Then, even though I insisted, they said that you had traveled, you seemed happy... So I stopped looking for you, I was having trouble getting Cecilia to stop her destructive habits, like stopping drinking, harming the baby. Ceci is very stubborn and didn't want to accept that this was happening to her, it took a while for her to accept Eduardo as a gift not a punishment. But I didn't give up on you in spite of everything. Not that I wanted you to stop living your life, or run back to me. Or worse, he was brooding or suffering for me, feeling angry... But I waited. I respected your opinion, just wanted to see you well. I just wanted to know if you were okay and happy, if being away from me was the best thing for you. Which proved to be true. He laughed humorlessly, leaning close to me across the counter. I bit my lip as I felt his face close to mine, I tried to look away in vain. "I've never stopped looking for you, I've always tried to find out about you. She didn't know she wanted me to go around the world after you, I thought it would make her hate me more.

"I'd hate you if you came after me. I said, very quietly. Turning her face and motioning for him to move away. He sank into his chair, asking wryly:

"Then why did you ask?" -why... Deep down; My conscience whispered, you wish he would do it now. - Malu, say something.

I stared at him, analyzing the lines of his face. Thinking about what to say, I felt my throat was dry, I didn't want to say it to be honest... I wanted to do something, but I couldn't. His chin trembled slightly with anxiety. Her lips were parted as if to drink in my future words. A thin layer of hair showed that he was a little busy taking care of his beard. I murmured, finding in it a salvation, or a perdition, I don't know:

"You need to shave, urgently.

"It's meant to scratch..." he laughed humorlessly, his voice sad but a teasing smile pointing at me. Her hand dragged close to mine, while the other ran over her chin. Something occurred to me at that moment

"Victor always shaves. I let go involuntarily, Igor's hand stopped, his fingers almost touching mine, which were firmly squeezing the napkin. He withdrew his hand, looking annoyed.

"You managed to turn an absolutely normal sentence into the most annoying thing I've ever heard, Malu.

"I'm not going to apologize.

"Why are we talking about this?" His?

"Because he's part of my life!" I exclaimed, more to myself than to him. I needed to focus on that, on Victor. - He's my gift!

"I can handle it, with him being part of your life... Like yours, argh, boyfriend and everything else, at least for now. But I can't... Why don't you admit that I'm part of you?