Life After the Storm

He is So cocky, like why does he automatically think that I want to be a part of his pack I don't need him? I don't need anybody I don't have anybody it will be easier that way. I don't know if I could really handle losing someone else I care about it is best for me to just distance myself from the world. Before he wanted nothing to do with me, he wanted me to leave what is so different now. Even though I saved his life that doesn't mean anything I am one of the kinds that he hates the most a rouge.

Maybe it's because I am not the person who bows down to his feet, I am not going to anytime soon. Even though he is sexy as hell And I would love to fill his hands all over my body. I need to snap out of it I mean I guess I will agree to stay for now but once I am healed, I will leave. I am so far into thought I didn't even realize that there was someone else in the Room.

"Hello Lilly, my name is Dean I am the pack doctor."

"Hi it's a pleasure to meet you thank you so much for helping me."

"I think you need to understand that your body needs to adjust to healing. The best thing for you to do right now is probably just take it easy for the next couple of weeks."

"You want me to stay here for weeks is that really necessary."

"Yes it is especially for your pup your body isn't healing but it's also adjusting to your pregnancy."

"What my pup I'm pregnant you have to be joking this can't be true."

"I am not joking you are indeed pregnant you need to take good care of yourself for your pup."

I am shocked by his words I never thought that I would be pregnant my brother did say I Would be loved and have my own I didn'trealize it would be so soon. Now it is not the time I don't even know where my life is going how am I going to be able to raise a pup. I can't be a rouge now it would be putting my pup into danger. I can see the doctor's lips moving, but I hear nothing I am in shock. Now I'm just terrified what is going to happen will I be able to offer anything to my pup I'm going to lose my shit then I hear a sweet voice inside my head "Lilly it will be OK I will help you along the way no matter what you have me your wolf Star? His words shattered my world now everything has changed. What am I going to do now I am not going back to where I was I will never return there?

I snap out of my thoughts by someone shaking me Lilly "I know that this is all hard to take in at once. You would be putting yourself in a lot of danger running alone."

Tears start to form in my eyes and run down my cheeks "I don't want to belong to anybody."

"Being a part of my pack does not mean I own you will still have your own free will."

"Why are you being nice to me all of a sudden you once hated me what changed your mind."

"You risked your life to save not only my son, but mine as well. The least I could do is help you and your pup."

I look at the doctor and I look at Landon "I need time to think, please just give me some time to let all of this sink in."

"Of course take some time to let all of this sink in we will leave you."

I don't know what to think right now I'm in so much in shock that I'm pregnant Ivan got what he wanted, and it makes me angry that I'm going to have to carry his pup. All that he has done to me now I will have a reminder every day. I know that I shouldn't feel this way, I should be overjoyed and excited to becoming a mother. There is no comparing to my mother I will never be as good as she was.

I fall to my knees and scream why is all this happening to me it's too much for one person. I was just getting ready to find myself how am I going to be able to do that with a child. Why is my life so damn complicated why can't it just be easy? These past couple of months have been the worst months of my 18 years of life.

Lilly now stop beating yourself up all that has happened to you, it was out your control. You should be grateful that you survived. You have a chance of living a full life, a happy life. The only person who is capable of taking that from you is yourself. Nothing is easy you have to fight for everything doesn't give you reason to give up. Stop not believing in yourself you are stronger than what you think. Your pup is going to need you He or she will be the center of our entire life. We will survive and give our pup the best possible life possible, I promise you that. Star tries to reassure me her words cut through me like a knife I can do this I am just scared.

I pick myself up off the ground I realize I don't need anyone my life will be what I allow it to be. I'm not going to give up I need to stay strong I now have a reason for existence. This is what my brother was talking about I can't let him down. I know that it's not going to be easy, but I have no other choice but to fight it is not just about me any longer.

I put my hands on my belly and whisper I'm going to try to give you the best life possible peanut. Everything I do will be for you. Star Says don't worry Lilly we can do this. Deep down I know that she is right, bu I'm just scared to be responsible for another life.

I try to gather myself before I go back in front of the Alpha I don't want to seem weak. I know that he wants to no my story, but I'm not ready to tell him. I don't trust him he might know Ivan and I don't want him to hand me over to him. He did not give me any reason not to trust him, but I believe that trust is earned, and he hasn't earned it yet.

I walk into the other room where Alpha Landon and Dean are they look at me, I can see concern in their eyes. I say to them Look, I am surprised by all this, but I will not be controlled. I will stay, but I'm not anyone's puppet."

"Look Lilly, I don't know why you think that we just want to control you that is not the cause. There is something else you need to know about yourself." "What are you talking about, oh my God, and I'm I having twins I can't handle two babies oh my go.d"

I feel like I'm going to pass out what am I going to do. Dean comes over and grabs my hand trying to reassure me "no my dear, you're not carrying twins." "It's a little more complicated than that there are test I can do, but I don't want to while your pregnant."

"I'm confused what are you talking about."

"Have you ever heard of a Healer Wolf?" "No, I have not."

"Your generation would have not been taught about a Healer Wolf it is probably because to be honest we didn't think they existed any longer."

"So why are you telling me about them now if they do not exist?"

"I'm not 100% sure, but I think that you may be a Healer Wolf because of how you heal. No other Wolf would have survived what you have suffered. You have no scars or blemishes your skin is perfect." I'm not sure what to say I mean any time I have ever got hurt I always healed faster than my brother. I smile when I remember how mad he would get when I would heal and his wound would still hurt. He always said that it was because I had superpowers. I am not even sure what a Healer even is. My parents would have told me they would have never hidden it from me right.

"Wait, wouldn't my wolf know she was a Healer Wolf if she had some hidden abilities?"

"Not necessarily wolfs need to be trained to bring their abilities out."

"Abilities, what kind of abilities are you talking?"

"Every Healer is different, but I can't test my theory until after your pup would be born I don't want to risk any complications to your pup."

"That is a lot of information is their way we can just take a break from all this talking please."

"Sure, if you want to talk more about it, you know where I'm at."