His Immense Desires

TRYING TO FIGHT MY FEARS OFF

**** JANELLE'S POV****

I wanted to ask her the reason she called me, when my phone went off.

Gawddddddd, I had forgotten to charge it yesterday night. I had come back from classes yesterday evening, because my course was timed for the evening session.

I was so stressed out, that I forgot charging my phone, I woke up in the night to read my books, only to find out that there was no light.

That was just so strange, I didn't expect light not to be that night, as I had grown accustomed to seeing light all through the day.

I kept my phone on the table, I remembered Steff telling me she would be coming to my lodge.

Although that was like 8am in the morning, I guessed she would be doing her morning routine, after all she has all the day to come visiting.

The first day I had gone to her lodge, was the same day I vowed never to put myself in the position of going to see her.

Getting into the gate of their lodge, you could perceive all manner of weed and illegal drugs, which they inhale or take in.

I wasn't mad that they were doing it, I was only sorry for them, because within me they are too young to engage themselves in such illicit things which would definitely make their lives miserable someday.

I am not saying it tho, because I am perfect, No, I don't even think that in my whole life I would ever think of striving to be perfection itself.

I felt like choking, as the smell coming from these drugs were taunting.

I was still trying to make my way through the group of girls talking and chattering while smoking, when I looked up.

Guess who I saw, my course representative, Ben, ohhh myyyy. I never thought in my life that a course representative would ever indulge in such unholy activity.

I laughed inwardly on how our lecturers, praised like alike though, he is god himself.

The look on his face didn't look like someone that cared enough, if what he's doing is wrong or right.

I wanted to wave at him, but on second thoughts, I waved it aside..

I was still thinking about Ben, whom most teachers talked about, on how dedicated he's to study.

I asked a girl who was in a corner doing the normal stuff, which they all seemed as holy, "please can you help me through with steffs' room?", I begged.

She looked at me warily and said, "Dah innocent one huhh", I didn't understood what she said, I just nodded my head.

"Ya came talking about Steff, ya think in ya head, like she's dah only motherfucker that stays here right", she continued.

"I am so sorry, it's Stefflon Douglas, she said it's room two hundred and fifteen, like 215", I decided saying it in numeral cause I didn't think she would understand me.

"Okay, just keep going straight, turn by your left, you will see a t-junction that separates two hostel, the one by your right is Hostel B...."

"Sorry I didn't say hostel B, actually I said Room 215, please, so sorry for the inconveniences tho", I said giving her a puppy eyes.

"Bebe, when next someone is talking, you let him or her to finish up, the hostel by your right, consists of room 101-200.

You get me right now?, You didn't allow me to finish, you claim you don't know the way yet you interrupted when I was just explaining to you the way", she scoffed. "Oh, my bad, I am so sorry, will get going, thanks for the direction", I thanked her, that was wholeheartedly you know.

I set off for steffs' lodge, damn everywhere just smells so smoky.

It took me about eight minutes before I got to her lodge, I wanted to knock, but I saw that the door was slightly opened, I just let myself in by barging through. "Heyyyyyyy, while I was waiting for you, you're her doing God knows what, wait!!!!", She was sniffing some white substances.

"What the fuck Steff, what are you doing, do you know how harmful that is, we talked about it the previous day I had seen you sniffing these stuffs in.

Now you're back at it, you're just making me seem not so good, like though am a sick idiot like you", I was still ranting.

I looked across the table, she wasn't there again, she was on the floor.

At first I was perplexed as to what she's doing on the floor, "this is definitely one of her pranks", I thought.

I left her for like five minutes, maybe when she's gotten so tired, she would stand up, rub on her jeans and start acting serious as usual.

Wait, funny enough it's past ten minutes, she wasn't moving at all, I had to do something. I thought she was actually pranking me.

I rapidly rushed outside the house, I saw some group of girls chattering among themselves, "please can you all come over, I need a little help from you girls", I pleaded. "So what is it you want?", They asked.

"It's hard to explain tho, but it isn't here, rather in my friends' lodge, please it won't take your time", they all agreed and together we headed up to steffs'room.

I opened the door and pointed at steffs' unmoving body, they looked at me with a look of horror written on their faces.

I feared the worst, I swore that if anything happens to her am going to take the full blame on myself.

They all scooted and turned her, but, she wasn't moving.

They kept nodding their head in a negative response.

"Ohhh Godddd, I am done for, what was I thinking, I should have called them since when I noticed her earlier, I thought it was her normal stunt she was trying to pull on me.

I never knew it would escalate to this", I thought.

"Since when did you notice this?", They asked.

"She's my best friend, I only came to see her, I came in and saw her sniffing in some powdered substance, maybe cocaine, I don't really know.

I walked in, I was angry she kept me waiting at home, so I started shouting at her, I became more furious when I noticed she wasn't even paying attention to me or trying to acknowledge my presence.

She was just so busy with what she was doing, if I had known I wouldn't have raised my voice on her, maybe that's the reason she's like this", I said with tears falling freely from my eyes.

I didn't want to mention the word death, or think about it, right now it sounds foreign to me.

I was still in thought, when one of the girls nudged my shoulders with her hands.

"I think I know what's wrong", she said. "So what do you think is wrong, because I am ignorant of the situation", I said.

"Someone sniffs in cocaine and after some few minutes, she slumps to the floor, and you say you're ignorant of the situation, what are you, haven't you taken it in before?", Sh asked.

"No I haven't taken it", I replied her sincerely. I don't know how some people after taking all this illicit drugs, they know the implications and effects of it.

The effects could be seen physically yet they still don't want to stop taking them.

"It's a minor stuff, and it happens to almost everyone, what really happened is that, she didn't eat enough solid before inhaling the drugs.

So actually the drugs are just having it's effect, and nothing else", she said.

I calmed down a little bit, I wondered what would have happened if I hadn't come to see her.

The girls told me to help in taking her to the bathroom, once inside they out her in the bathtub. "What are you goings trying to do?", I was just so inquisitive about the situation.

"We need to pour her water, to revive her a bit, then you cook some oily food for her", I nodded my head and prayed that their theory works out.

After we were done with everything, she woke up, I felt so bad for her, I gave her some food to eat, it wasn't even barely an hour, I slept off on her studying table.

"Hey chubs", I woke up to find her staring at me, giving me a hypnotizing smile, I fell so badly for it.

"Hey macho, I thought something's going to go wrong", I said rushing over to the bed while her hugged her☐☐☐☐☐☐☐☐