Chapter Virgin
Diana
Two weeks later…
“You look so beautiful Diana,” Holden told me as brought my hand to his lips and kissed softly.
I looked up into his dark golden eyes.
“Thank-you Alpha,” I replied timidly.
“It’s not Alpha anymore Luna, I am you’re mate.” Holden put his hand to my cheek and grazed the side of my face. He ran his fingers through my black hair and pulled the strands covering my face to my ear. “I couldn’t ask for a better Luna…” I blushed when I heard him say “Luna.”
If the 16-year-old me can see me years later mating to Alpha Holden, I think I would faint.
“YOU MAY KISS NOW!” the elder white hair man announced as he read the final ceremonial vows.
Holden grabbed me by waist and lifted me right off my feet and planted a kiss right on my lips. I could hear clapping in the background getting louder as we kissed for several seconds. Our tongues were intertwined and dancing in my mouth. He tasted so sweet.
As he placed me back down we stared into each other’s eyes. His brownish golden hair was thick and waved almost down to his ears, and his perfectly white teeth poked through his big smile. The only thing left to do was consummate and mark each other tonight. This would seal our bond forever and I would finally be able to start fresh in my new home. I was the new Luna of the Crimson pack and it was time to start my new life with Holden.
Later that night...
“Come.” He ordered me to step towards him. I was already undressed, and he was looking at me up and down. Him seeing me naked for the first time made my heart beat fast. Some girls said it hurt the first time, but that is not what scared me. He was going to mark me tonight and I would mark him, making us bonded forever.
“Diana, you’re-so beautiful.” He grabbed me by the hand to pull me closer. He was already sitting on the bed naked and I could see he was already rock hard.
“Holden, it’s- it’s –“I stuttered but couldn’t form my words. Seeing him fully naked and erect made me nervous.
“I know. I can tell.” He pulled my hair over my shoulders so he could see my chest. My nipples were hard as he cupped one of them in his hand. I could hear his breathing get louder as he squeezed them hard. I gave out a small moan and he playfully smiled.
“I’ll show you angel. It might hurt a little, but over time you will get used to it.” He continued squeezing my breast in his hand while grabbing my ass with his other hand. I could feel myself getting moist between my legs.
“Good girl. You see, I can smell you Diana. You’re mine to touch,” he placed his hand in between my legs and rubbed his hand gently back and forth. “And mine to fuck.”
I instantly let out a loud moan for all the world to hear. I’ve never been touched down there before and it felt amazing. It was better then I predicted and I wanted him to be inside me now, but I knew we were just getting started.
Suddenly Holden stood up throwing me on the bed as he could climbed on top of me. I was taken back by his aggression, but I knew he wouldn’t hurt me. As he hovered over me I could feel his warm breathe against my skin. It gave me goosebumps and I shivered in anticipation. I was practically pinned down unable to move at all. He started whispering in my ear, “Diana, do it.” He held his neck near my mouth. Wanting me to do what I was most scared of. Marking him.
I gave a slight hesitation, but I knew what I had to do. After a moment of hesitation, I extended my canines and sunk them deep in his neck. He gave a loud howl as I pierced skin and I let go in a panic thinking I bit too hard, but by the way he was looking he seemed like he enjoyed it. Blood was dripping down my mouth and I licked it clean with my tongue.
“Diana, I feel you, all of you.” Holden’s voice sounded deeper and his whole body felt stiff. I looked at him confused at his changed demeanor. Suddenly, he flipped me over to my stomach while he straddled my ass, pinning my small body down like a rag doll. I knew I was at his mercy. This wasn’t how I imagined losing my virginity.
“Holden.. No, I don’t want to like this.” I felt a hard slap on my ass which instantly gave me a jolt of adrenaline. The sting was intense and left a burning sensation. “Holden! That hurt, what the hell!” In response I felt another slap on my other ass cheek and this time it was even harder. “You’re hurting me!” Tears started filling my eyes. I felt trapped under his huge body unable to move an inch.
“It’s Alpha my angel. Say it.” He demanded in the same deep voice as he put his hand on the back of my neck pinning me even deeper into the bed. I stayed silent unable to make out the words, too scared to say the wrong thing. After a few seconds I felt another slap, and another. The pain was getting unbearable and I felt like my only way out was to obey his commands.
“Alpha, yes Alpha!” I cried out.
“See angel, it’s not hard at all. I know you haven’t been fucked before so I’ll try to take it easy on you.” He placed his hand back on my sex and rammed his two fingers inside me. I started seeing stars, maybe from the pain or the pleasure as I wasn’t sure. I wanted him to be gentle, but his version of gentle was rough.
His fingers continued back and forth and I felt the wetness soak the sheets underneath my legs. I felt myself adjusting to his fingers, but based on the pain from his two fingers I was frightened how his shaft will feel full extended inside me. Maybe it’s supposed to be painful? I wasn’t sure what the normal was since this was my first time.
“You’re so tight. I need you now angel.” He released his fingers from my sex and lowered himself on top of me. He began grazing his cock against my entrance, barely letting his tip enter me. I was shaking in anticipation, not knowing when he was going to do it. He placed one of his hands on my back to ensure I couldn’t wiggle free from him. It was easy for him to hold me down and I was so scared how long it would last. What if I wanted to stop? Would he stop?
He let out a large moan and I knew he already put himself in me. I screamed out in pain. I didn’t imagine it would hurt this much. Holden was big and I felt like my inside wasn’t even big enough to accommodate all of him. More tears were streaming down my face as I couldn’t even bear the pain anymore. I gripped the bed sheet like I was hanging off a cliff. It was the only thing I could grab onto to help endure the pain. He was being too rough for me to even enjoy the moment.
“Diana! Fuck baby you feel incredible.” Holden perched my ass up in the air to angle himself better inside me, while I still held onto the bed sheets. I tried to look back to see him, but I was focused on the growing red spot beneath us.
“Alpha- Alpha.. I’m – bleeding!” The words could barely escape my mouth as he continued thrusting aggressively deep inside me.
Suddenly his movements stopped and a few seconds later he pulled himself out of me. I let out a sigh of relief. I felt so sore and I was hoping he was already finished.
“Turn over.” He said in the same deep tone. My heart sank hearing those words as I realize he is not finished with me.
The man that I was with right now was not the caring person I met before. He seemed so sinister right now and it scared me, so I complied with his orders and turned onto my back.
As I turned over I looked up into his eyes and they were almost unrecognizable. The once beautiful hazel eyes were now a deep red. It was like looking into a picture of a demon from a book, only this was real life.
“Good girl, I’m so proud of you Diana. I know I’m a little rough…” As Holden said this I felt some sense of relief. At least he was acknowledging he was being hard on me. Maybe it won’t be as bad next time around. I remember the girls back home talking about their experiences and how it hurt the first time. My problem was I didn’t know what the “normal” was. Maybe that’s why I’ve been scared all these years to commit.
Holden put his hand to my face to wipe the tears falling down my cheeks. “Almost done ang-“ I interrupted him hoping he could now listen to me.
“Holden I-“A sharp sting hit my face, so fast I didn’t see it coming. He slapped me!
“It’s Alpha my sweet girl.” He grabbed my cheek forcefully holding the spot where he just slapped. I stayed quiet too scared to speak. I closed my eyes as he lowered himself on me. I could feel his shaft rubbing my sex once again, awaiting entry. I released the tension in my legs so he could easily enter. I didn’t want to resist him in fear that he would slap me again.
Even know I was still in pain, I could still feel my wetness as he rubbed himself back and forth over my sex. He moaned as he felt my juices lather on him and in one swift move he thrusted himself back inside of me. I let out a loud gasp as he entered all of himself into me. I placed my arms around his neck so I could try to control how deep he went. My heart was racing a million beats a minute as the intensity of his thrusts increased.
As my eyes were closed I kept envisioning a man. I felt myself heating up inside as I continued fantasizing and imagining this man was on top of me instead. This mysterious man wasn’t Holden but he made me feel amazing. Holden’s moaning was drowning out as I continued my concentration on the mysterious man. I couldn’t see his face, but I could see his body, covered in tattoos and his hair was jet black. I wanted to see more, but I was unable to see through my blurred vision. My heart felt like it wanted to escape out of my chest and I was unable to contain it. Sweat poured from my face and I was breathing heavily. I felt my whole body go limp and the man was slowly disappearing. All my surroundings were muted and I was left in my head chasing the mysterious man that made my body heat up.
“Diana, Diana?” I could hear Holden’s voice of concern, but it sounded far away. I couldn’t open my eyes and I didn’t care to. I wanted to find out who this man was. The further I chased him the further away I drifted from reality. I was floating away from my body as Holden shook me to try to wake me up. The only thing I wanted to do was stay inside my head continuing the endless chase of the mysterious man.