Chapter 36
"You all be careful going home." Mr. Mercer warmly greeted as he hugged two women that attended his church before sending
them on their way out the front door.
Once he shut the door, the man turned to see Deacon Hawthorne taking a collection of pots and pans into the kitchen. Without
even looking around at the empty living room, Charles followed the deacon and noticed him placing the heavy pots in the
refrigerator.
"You don't have to do that, Brother." Charles smiled while going over and dipping dirty dishes into the already filled sink.
"Well, if it doesn't get done now, then it never will." Hawthorne modestly replied before shutting the refrigerator door.
Chles carried on in his washing duty as if his longtime friend was not even there beside him at all. He scrubbed and scoured one
dirty dish after another, even the ones that were already virtually spotless to begin with."Boy, that sure was some good macaroni
and cheese Sister Rozell brought over." Hawthorne gaily commented from out of nowhere.Sparking back to life, Charles
chuckled without taking his eyes off the dishes he was cleaning, "Yes, sir, it was sure was."There rested a tidal wave of silence in
the kitchen. It was so encompassing that even Charles himself could feel the weight of it bearing upon him. Page 287"Charles,
why don't you stop that for now?" Hawthorne implored. "You can do that later."Gradually, Charles took his hands out of the warm,
soapy water and began to dry them off with a rag that was lying on the counter to his right.With his hands clasped together, the
deacon keenly asked, "When do you think the police will ever find out what made that man kill Isaac?"Charles continued on
drying his hands while taking unsettling glances back and forth from the deacon to the wet towel he was using."Brother," Charles
reacted in a low tone, "there isn't a degree of investigating the police can do that will bring my boy back. I got folks all over telling
me to sue this person and that person for millions and millions of dollars. Everyone wants to riot for my child, thinking that's the
right thing to do. Believing that will bring Isaac back. They're only doing it for themselves because they're already mad at the
world. They're searching for an outlet; something to fight for. Not one of them even knew my boy.""Well," Hawthorne sighed, "at
least he's in peace now. That's all that matters."Charles slowly placed the wet towel back onto the counter before turning to a
window and looking out at the dull, grey sky."What about Lynnette and Isaiah, Pastor? How can anyone explain to that little boy
what happened to his father when he grows up? It's just a doggone shame." Hawthorne pitifully frowned.Charles pulled himself
away from the window and simply answered, "I guess we'll have to wait and see, Lord willing."Deacon Hawthorne reached out
and hugged Charles, patting him on the back saying, "Are you gonna be alright, Brother?" Page 288"I'm just fine." Charles
grimaced from the other side of Hawthorne. "You tell Clara that her marble cake was darn good, as always.""I sure will, Pastor."
The deacon said as he walked into the living room and put on his coat. "Now, if you need anything, just call us. Clara and I are
gonna be home for the rest of the day."With a humble grin, Charles said, "I think I'll be just fine. You be careful out there." He
added before opening the front door.Charles watched with bated breath as the deacon carried on out to his maroon Cadillac
before closing the door. Inside the house was a sudden, claustrophobic silence; not even the usual leaky faucet in the kitchen
could be heard dripping.With a pair of heavy, sluggish legs, the man began a solemn tour of his own home. Above the fireplace
sat Isaac's picture that was placed next to his mother's. Gently, Charles positioned his son's frame to where it sat perfectly
straight.From the mantle he dragged on into his bedroom, dropped down to his knees and folded his hands together. But instead
of closing his eyes, he kept them open and rotated his head slightly to the right to where all he could see was his closet door that
was slightly ajar.There was a prayer in the back of his throat waiting for the perfect opportunity to escape. It was just sitting and
festering, like a dead animal on a searing hot day, not wanting to budge a single inch.The man allowed only his thoughts to do all
of his speaking for him. He was angry at himself for not taking his own son more seriously, but rather than explode into a vicious,
house-wrecking tirade like he desired, he caged it all inside. The rage, the tears and even the prayer to God were locked up
securely while his hands remained tightly clutched the longer he gazed endlessly on at the closet. Page 289After five whole
minutes of kneeling, Charles got to his feet and resumed his tour. As he exited his bedroom, the man captured a glimpse of the
living room and the couch and recliner where both he and Isaac would sit every Sunday afternoon during football season. How
the living room would come alive with the uproars of men whooping and hollering back and forth over who had the better team,
The Browns or The Raiders.Once the celebrated image melted away, Charles just happened to turn to his immediate left to find
himself standing right in front of Isaac's bedroom. The man carefully shoved open the door to find the bed unmade, as usual.
Along the walls were posters of O.J. Simpson and Bruce Lee. Charles made his way inside and began to make the bed from top
to bottom. As he fluffed the pillows, Charles couldn't help but to look over to the other side of the bed to notice Isaac's record
collection lying next to the wall. Out of all the albums that were displayed, the man managed to catch sight of Marvin Gaye's, I
Want You, and the album cover's artwork. For a brief moment, Charles squinted and cracked and very subtle grin before he laid
the pillows down onto the bed.Before he could even turn away, he glanced over at the nightstand to see a framed picture of
Isaac, Lynnette and Isaiah that was placed next to the lamp.With pouty lips, Charles picked up the frame and longingly stared at
the three happy people. He affectionately recalled how proud he was of Isaac when he told him that he and Lynnette were
getting married. How much Isaiah resembled his father; from the smile all the way to the hairstyle was like watching Isaac grow
up all over again.Without giving another glance, Charles placed the picture back down onto the nightstand and began for the
doorway. As carefully as he could, Charles shut the door behind him before standing perfectly still inside the hallway. By the
position of the shadows he could sense that nightfall was drawing nigh. Much to his chagrin, twilight would arrive...in only a few
hours' time.