Chapter 734 Letting Go of Obsessions
"Okay." Jessie nodded her head.
Violet sat down at the edge of the hospital bed, "I was not in the same situation as you, I didn't know who the father was at first, but you know, and he is the one you love, so your desire to keep this child, I can understand, of course. I'm not advising you to get rid of this child, I just want to tell you, this is not child's play, and once you do make the choice, you are not able to regret it."
"Violet is right." Jessie's father and mother echoed.
Violet smiled, "This child is destined to not be loved and accepted by its father, so if you want to keep this child, you are destined to be a single mother, you are also destined to become stronger and even have to give up more things for this child. Not all men are able to accept you having a child, and you certainly can't feel at ease when you are with other men with this child, can you?"
Jessie's eyelids drooped.
Violet took her hand, "So you have to more than just give this up, at the same time, you also have to endure a lot of things than ordinary people, like other people's comments, other people's blank stares, just like me. Whether I was pregnant with Calvin and Arya, or if I gave birth to Calvin and Arya, there are always people around me who will ask who their father is, why you gave birth to a child without being married, and they will even be behind your back to saying that you misbehaved and messed around outside before you got pregnant, can you handle that?"
"I can." Jessie clenched her palms and said with certainty, "Violet, you came through the same way, you can bear it, why can't I? And you know my stubbornness, if I'm really going down the wrong path that way, I won't back off, I'll just keep going, that's me."
"I know." Violet nodded, "But you can bear this, can you bear the child's inquiry? In a child's growing up, there is a need for the role of a father, you surely don't want to tell the child who his father is, after all, his father won't accept him, so you surely won't tell him and let him know that he is a child who is not accepted by his father, because you are afraid that the child will be sad."
Jessie bit her lip and didn't speak anymore.
Because Violet was right, having this child, she would indeed not tell this child who his father was.
"So Jessie, children are curious, the more you don't say, the more he just wants to know, just like Calvin, in the past, he had asked me who his father is, I don't even know how to tell him. Seeing his expectation for his father, I feel very bad in my heart, because I can't tell him who his father is, because I don't know, and I can't give him a father, so seeing the child not get an answer, I felt sad."
Violet said as she touched her heart.
Jessie smiled bitterly, "Violet, in fact, I know, because I saw with my own eyes what you went through, so how could I not be clear about what I will go through by keeping this child? But I am confident that I can give the child double love so that he can live without his father, and I am also ready to be judged." Jessie took a deep breath and said.
Violet nodded, "I see, so you're sure you want to keep this child right?"
Jessie lowered her eyes, "Well, I want to stay, at first I was torn, but now I have thought it through, I want to keep it, it is impossible for George and I to be together, but I can keep our child, at least this is my heart for this relationship."
This child was considered her final reward for her bitter love for George for more than ten years.
Thinking about it, Jessie rubbed her belly and smiled, "And my intuition tells me that if I don't keep it, I might regret it for the rest of my life."
"Yeah." Violet patted the back of her hand, "I thought the same thing, I also wanted to abort Calvin and Arya at first, but in the end I didn't, in fact, during the time I chose not to abort, I also wondered whether I was right or wrong to do so, and whether I would regret my choice today in the future. As it turns out, it's the choice to abort in the first place that you'll really regret."
"Look, you're thinking all this, you know at that time, you didn't know whose baby it was, and I knew, so it's even more impossible for me to abort him, I don't want to live with regrets all the time in the future, even though having this baby might be a hard life in the future, but at least, I won't regret it."
Jessie said, looking at her parents, "Dad, mom, please allow me to be capricious one last time, let me keep this baby, okay? For its sake, I'll live well and won't do anything stupid again."
Jessie's father and mother looked at their daughter who was so serious and sighed after glancing at each other.
Jessie's father said, "Since you have already decided, keep it, I just hope that you will be able to do what you are saying now in the future and will not regret it."
"Never!" Jessie nodded with certainty.
She was an adult and knew what she was doing.
This choice of hers was definitely not a headlong rush, but a decision made after deep thought.
Jessie's mother looked at Jessie, "Since you won't regret it, let's do that, and take good care of the baby when it's born."
"Well, thanks Mom and Dad." Jessie broke into a smile.
Violet stroked her hair, "Congratulations, you're going to be a mother."
"Thanks Violet." Jessie looked at Violet and smiled.
After that, Violet stayed with her.
It wasn't until it was almost dark that Stanley came to pick her up from the hospital with her two children that she followed them back.
In the car back at the hotel, Violet took Stanley's hand and spoke, "Jessie finally decided to keep that child."
"It is expected." With his other hand, Stanley slid the tablet.
Violet raised her eyebrows, "You guessed it already?"
"Pretty much, Jessie loves George for more than ten years, even after being hurt so many times, she has not completely stopped loving him. Her love for George is no longer pure love, more, it is obsession, because more than ten years of loving him without an equal response, she cannot come out, and this child is the key to release her."
Stanley spoke, faintly.
Violet cocked her head in confusion, "How so?"
"As I said earlier, Jessie's more than ten years of affection has not been exchanged for an equal response from George, George has become an obsession for her that she cannot walk away from, and now, she is pregnant, and the appearance of this child has broken Jessie's obsession."
Stanley put down the tablet, "This child let Jessie understand that her dedication to George's feelings for more than ten years is not in vain, but her feelings bears fruit."
"I know." Violet lifted her chin in a daze, "After more than ten years of loving him, if in the end there was nothing, Jessie would have been unable to walk out, always trapped in this relationship, and now she is pregnant, Jessie knows that the feelings she gave got the same response, it means that her feelings is not in vain, she can completely let go."