Chapter 197
Shu Tian's outstretched hand froze, and then she quickly withdrew and placed it on her lap. She was a little flustered. "I took it off when I washed my hands just now. I, I will wear it now..." She hurriedly took out the diamond ring from her pocket and put it on her finger in a flash. She even reached out to show it to him. "Look."
However, Li Han, with a cold expression, did not give her any response.
The atmosphere in the car was a little subtle. Shu Tian swallowed silently, knowing that she had touched Li Han's nerve. She did not dare to say anything, afraid that a word might become a trigger. Although he didn't say anything, the car sped up a lot.
It was more than seven o'clock in the evening. Although it was past the peak hours, there were still a lot of cars on the street. With the oversized SUV shuttling through the traffic, Shu Tian couldn't help but whisper to him, "Slow down..."
Li Han, however, acted as if he hadn't heard it. He was still driving very fast. It took him just forty minutes instead of more than an hour at usual times to get home. The car stopped at the entrance of the villa. Shu Tian felt dizzy with her pale face all the way.
She unbuckled her seat belt and got out of the car. It was not until standing for a while that she felt less uncomfortable.
After a while, she turned to look at the person sitting in the car who had not moved. Feeling a little depressed, she opened the door and stared at him silently. "Don't you get out of the car?"
Only then did he put his eyes on her, as if there was a layer of mist in his eyes, which looked mysterious.
He didn't say anything and waited quietly. However, the little woman standing in front of him was still silent after a long time. He had no patience anymore, pulling out the secret compartment and taking a pack of cigarettes. As he handed one to his mouth, he said, "If there's nothing you want to say, you can go in first."
Only then did Shu Tian realize the seriousness of the matter. Gritting her teeth, she stepped forward and got back into the car. "I didn't take it off on purpose. Don't be angry..."
"Not on purpose?" Although he was asking her, there was not much trust in his tone.
Shu Tian was speechless because she actually did it on purpose.
She was afraid that Ye Lihua would ask about it when seeing the ring, so she subconsciously took it off and put it in her pocket. As for her motive for doing so, she could not figure it out. Perhaps it was because she was too nervous at that time.
Li Han lowered the window a little and let the outside air take away the smoke in the car. Although he was extremely upset at this moment, he still cared about her feelings.
This kind of care had become a subconscious habit of him.
They sat in the car without saying a word, Shu Tian wanted to explain but she didn't know what to say.
After a moment of silence, the cigarette between his fingertips had reached the butt. He reached out to open the cigarette case in the car and put the butt out.
Seeing that he was about to reach out for another one, Shu Tian frowned slightly and raised her hand to grab his arm. "Stop, or you'll cough."
If Li Han really wanted to break free from her, he would only need a little strength. But he didn't, seeming to be really grabbed by her.
In his ear, the woman's soft voice came, "If you mind, I won't take it off anymore, okay?"
"That's not what I care about." He finally opened his mouth and looked at her with a look of judgment that she had not seen for a long time. "You are afraid that your parents will know about our relationship." He said it in a confident tone instead of asking.
From her urging him to drive faster to hiding the ring, it was obvious what she was thinking.
"I'm not afraid." Shu Tian tightened the lunch box in her hand. "I'm just being careful."
Though her last failed marriage did not seem to have affected her at all, in fact, some of her actions indeed changed. She was not as anxious as before to introduce her lover to her parents, but more cautious. But this caution did not conflict with loving him.
"What are you afraid of? Do I make you feel unreliable, or do you always want to leave me one day?" Li Han sneered. "Or do you think your parents will not be satisfied with me?"
His aggressive attitude made Shu Tian a little breathless, and she lowered her head slightly. "No, I'm just not ready. It's my problem, not yours."
"Shu Tian." He rarely called her name in such a serious tone, unless there was something serious to talk to her about.
She felt worried, meeting his deep eyes in fear.
Then, he asked confusedly, "What are you hesitating about?"
"I didn't hesitate." Shu Tian tried to explain, not wanting him to misunderstand. "I just need some time to adjust myself, Li Han. I had an unhappy marriage. Even if it was only nominal, it left a deep impact on me. I know it's unfair to you, but I can't control these negative emotions..."
She wanted to tell her family about him without hesitation, but it was so difficult to say it.
That fear was not temporary, nor was it because of something or someone. It was just quietly lingering on her mind, preventing her from doing so.
At this point, she had already put her cards on the table. This indescribable feeling made her feel deeply inferior.
"I don't know how to explain it to you. I'm not afraid. I just need some time." She said.
She loved Li Han, much deeper than her love for Tang Zechen. The deeper she loved him, the harder it was to take this step.
The lunch box in her hand was still warm, and Shu Tian could not help but hold it tighter as if she could get a trace of warmth and comfort.
Li Han pressed his thin lips together and looked sideways at her disappointed sad face. The lunch box in her hands was filled with dumplings she made for him and he also noticed the Spring Festival couplets in the red paper bag. In fact, she was working hard on getting over her past little by little.
But she just could not easily forget her past since she was deeply hurt.
He didn't realize how hard she tried until now.
All of a sudden, he was filled with guilt and remorse. It was a quiet night, but he felt so uncomfortable that he felt suffocated as if he had been strangled.
"I'm sorry." He had apologized many times recently, which meant that he had wronged her many times. Then, he said hesitantly, "I was too busy today, and I missed you and wanted to see you all day. But when I saw you, you urged me to hurry up and you've taken off the ring. So I couldn't control my emotions at that moment."
"I know." Shu Tian didn't blame him, feeling it was her fault.
"I was too anxious." Li Han reached out to grab her little hand on her lap, looking at her gently, "No matter how much time you need, I'll wait for you."