Mate ...s ?!?!

[Orion’s POV]

I stared open mouthed at the closed door. I smelled a female wolf. They left me for a female even after saying they would never do such a thing to me. They had promised not to hurt me and yet they had just walked out and left me behind. They hadn’t even said a single word to me when they shut the door in my face. I was heart-broken and pissed all at the same time. How could they?! They promised!!

I was angrier with myself than them but it didn’t help that I was still sitting in the bed naked from last night as my turbulent thoughts hit me like a freight train. I had let my hormones get the best of me. I let the Mate Bond overtake my better judgement and now I was going to be tossed to the side again without a moment’s hesitation. They hadn’t even stopped to turn and look at me when they both just got up and left.

I could feel the tears in my eyes as I pulled myself off the bed and to the closet, they had stuck all my stuff in. It was their closet too and when I walked in, I could see that someone had actually hung up my clothes and put them in drawers, which I never had before due to the fact that I had to sleep in the basement all of my life. I never had so many clothes before so I only picked out one pair of everything. I sucked in a breath and began to grab my things. I stuffed it all into a bag, tears clouding my vision as I put stuff in the bag. I had trusted them and they had betrayed me at the scent of a horny female. I had let myself believe their lies and I wasn’t going to do it anymore; I was going to leave and they weren’t going to stop me.

The pain that filled me from the very thought of doing that was enough to drive me to the floor on my knees but I kept grabbing the few clothes I was going to take with me. Determined to leave without them ever knowing. It’s not like they were going to notice anyway, they were probably too busy with that female at the moment.

“Orion!” Jax called out from inside the room. His voice startled me, I had not been expecting him at all, he sounded worried not angry, but they were not going to fool me again. They had lied to me once enough for my lifetime. I was not going to let them fool me again, not this time. No matter how much this fucking hurt.

I remained silent as I zipped up the bag and sat on the floor. I was too teary eyed to really see anything but I could smell them as they rushed into the closet. I backed away from them quickly, pushing myself into a corner under a line of Jace’s shirts. I didn’t want to see them, but I did want them to see me. I wanted to see the pain in my eyes. I felt so conflicted at the moment and it just hurt me even more.

I wanted them to say I misunderstood, that female was nothing to them, I wanted them to scoop me up and tell me I was more important to them but I didn’t feel anything like that would ever happen to me. I wanted to be angry with them for leaving me without an explanation but I could see I was the one overreacting at the moment. They looked frantic with worry as they searched for me.

Jax came into the closet, hearing my sniffling, with Jace on his heels. They were so damn sexy. I wanted to be angry, I wanted to kick and scream and throw a massive temper tantrum but I was just too used to be pushed aside for any of my real feelings to come out in any other form but tears.

“Orion!” Jax exclaimed when he saw me huddled in the corner. He and Jace rushed to me, Jace pulled me out from under his shirts and Jax took me from his arms instantly. “What’s wrong love?” he asked me as he carried me back to the bed, sitting on the edge with me in his lap. He cradled me against his chest gently, like they have been known to do now. It something they picked up from Cassie.

Jace came out moments later with the bag filled with my clothes in his hands, tears coming down his face, one of my shirts from the bag in his hand. “W-what’s this?” he asked me as he dropped to his knees in front of me with my bag still in his hands. He reached for me his firm hands grasping at me gently. He was making sure I was still there.

I just broke. I felt my sadness crash down on me and it was too much as my tears spilled over and I just began sobbing. They just pulled me further onto the bed before smothering me with their huge bodies as they laid over me. It was comforting but it was also getting hard to breathe with their much larger bodies on top of my small one. I whimpered and pushed against them trying to get air into my lungs.

They backed up a little but they were both still holding onto me, their grip not loosening at all. “L-let m-me u-up.” I sniffed, trying to wiggle my way out from under them.

They weren’t going to move and after a few moments of trying to wiggle out I gave up and just lay there. They were just staring at me a plethora of emotions flashed across their faces. The biggest one was sadness and heartache I could not only see it but feel it in my very bones. It was that tangible; it was in the very air around the three of us.

“Baby boy, what happened to make you act like this?” Jace questioned softly as Jax moved his hand around to grip my waist.

They were becoming possessive again and while I usually found it sexy, right now it was becoming annoying. They were the ones to start this but at the same time I didn’t want to admit to my own faults. My own misgivings. I sniffled and shook my head. I didn’t want to admit to them but I was scared to be without them and that female earlier had made all the worst thoughts in my head come rushing in.

“I ...” I began feeling less than adequate, Rain growled in my head and suddenly pushed me to the back of our mind. He did so with such force it actually rocked my body, causing me to fall onto my back flat on the bed. “You had a female over here!!” Rain shouted harshly before letting me take the reins again.

Jace and Jax looked at me in shock, surprised by the hostility in my voice. “She was not invited here.” Jace began before I snapped again.

“You didn’t even hear me when I just wanted to know what was going on. Before I could even say anything to either of you, you just left!! Not a word from either of you about what was going on!!!” I shouted angrily. I’ve never shouted before and their reactions had me stilling in my spot. I was shocked by my own reaction but I was so angry at this that I just couldn’t hold it back anymore.

Both of them looked at me in total shock, their faces showing their hurt and pain at my words. Good! They need to know that I was not happy at the moment and they had hurt me. Jax stood up and went to his desk in the room, pulling open the center drawer and pulling out a small box. He came back to me and handed the box to Jace who just looked between Jax and I. His face was flushed with tears and I really wanted to stop all of this but they had hurt me.

I had trusted them not to push me away and they had done just that.

“Orion,” Jax said his voice deeper than normal and soft as he pulled me to the edge of the bed. “That female you smelled was nothing but a slut who is trying to get what does not belong to her. She means nothing to Jace and I. Only you will be with us forever. No one else could ever hold a candle to the amount of love we have for just you.” He said getting me to gasp and start shaking my head.

I was so stupid. They hadn’t chosen another. “T-then w-why did you leave without telling me what was going on?” I asked fresh tears coming from my eyes.

“Oh, sweet one, we didn’t want her to see you. You would become her target and eventually you will be on your own while we handle Pack matters.” Jace explained seriously.

What?! They were protecting me and I had totally ruined everything!! I accused them of leaving me and breaking their promise to me but they had only wanted to keep me safe from a possible threat. I hung my head in shame, shaking still from the tears that racked my body.

“I-I’m s-so s-s-sorry.” I whispered out; my voice barely audible in the room. I have never been so mortified in my life. I was not a good Mate for them and I had just proven it.

Jax growled a little, “You are good for us!” he snapped as he took my chin in his hand, pulling my face up to his, meeting his eyes. He must have heard my thoughts again and that was never a good thing.

“Orion, you are our Mate and the Goddess created the three of us to be together. We will never love anyone as much as we love you our little star.” Jace said as he moved to sit beside Jax.

“Y-you …” I began again trying to tell them that I would never love anyone else either. I wanted them to know how much they meant to me because all they had done since coming to me last week was show me that I was worth something and that I did mean something. At least to them. I knew that somewhere along the line I was going to run into some type of problem like this.

I felt myself regressing as I cried, my tears slipping from me as I tried to curl into a small ball. I was scared and frustrated. With my emotions running haywire I slipped into my ‘little’ space. Rain was even whimpering in the back of my mind trying to get ahold of our emotions. Neither one of us really wanted to show Jace and Jax this side of me, but it didn’t look like Rain and I were going to be given the option.

I was too mentally distraught to really focus on anything. I felt myself slip further and soon, everything looked much different to my child eyes.