Love Aint Always Pretty

Appetency

- a strong desire

Origin: English

26

I stared at myself in front of the mirror wearing this white bikini with this red cover up. Tracy barged into the bathroom all of a sudden and I quickly covered my body with the cover up. She stares at me on the mirror and starts smiling.

"I have a big stomach from that cheesecake and a few barbecues." I joked.

Tracy laughs, "Are you kidding me? Look at mine as well."

She starts walking towards where I was standing and stands behind me. Tracy starts untanglng my braided hair. "Let your hair down. It'll make those boys drool. Well, except for my baby Clyde." I smiled.

She puts some parts of my wavy hair over my chest and pulls me facing towards her.

"Penny is wearing this ugly bikini so strut your ass. Don't cover it." She tries to open the cover up and I let her see.

"Gosh Savannah your boobs are big! I mean it shows over your blouses but when it's bare like this, it's... Wow."

I blushed. "Okay. Okay. Don't go lesbo over my titties."

She laughs. "Now let's go. And stop covering it."

I just nod.

Both of us walked out of the bathroom and headed downstairs. Tracy said I was the only one who didn't go out to the lake yet. I was still doubting whether I should go out or not cos my stomach feels so full. When we headed out to the backyard, Tracy was holding my hand while the others were merrying around and dancing to the slutty club music. I quickly looked for Nick cos I haven't seen him after dinner. I see Aries and Alec making a bonfire then from out of nowhere I see Nick, topless, bringing a few logs alongside Romeo.

"Wow Savannah. You look so hot." Romeo acknowledging my arrival.

Nick quickly moved his head to me and it wasn't his first time to see me like this but I'm still getting a little bit shy. Aries and Alec were staring at me too. Usually my bikini is a one piece cos I'm not that confiden about my body and my skin and I'm not used to wearing two pieces.

"She is, isn't she?" Tracy commented.

"You do look pretty damn fine." Alec said.

I blushed. "Yeah thanks."

"Ah there's my babe! Cmon Trace, let's go swimming! Wow! Looking amazing Savannah!" Clyde appears and walks closer to us.

"Thanks Clyde." I said.

"Wanna join us Savannah?" Tracy asked.

"Maybe a little later." I answered.

"Alright. Suit yourself." Trace says before hopping over Clyde's back.

"Savannah." Nick calls out to me.

I turned to him. "Yeah?"

I'm hoping he's going to compliment me like how they complimented me. Compliment what I'm wearing Nick. Come on. Please. I'm only having the courage to wear this cos of you, cos I want to tease you. "Since you're the only one who's not doing anything right now, I need you to help me bring out more ice." Nick said strongly and sounded kissed.

"Nick." Tracy called out to him, telling him he's being rude again.

Is he mad? What did I do?

"It's okay." I snapped. "I'll just help."

Nick starts to walk and I was just following him. I was a few steps away from him and he didn't seem to wait for me. We reached the door and well he did open it for me and he leads the way to the kitchen. He walked around the bar and I was just silently following him.

"What can I help you with again? Ice right?" I asked.

He looks at me then quickly pulls me to him that was so out of the blue. I tried to catch my breathing. He bites his lower lip while he's looking right at me. Damn. So he just did that a while ago to excuse us from them cos he wanted me alone.

"I just really did that to get us away from them." He said under his breath.

Oh god Nick.

"But we need to be quick." Nick added.

"You are one great actor. I thought you were really mad at me cos I wasn't helping around." I answered.

He smirked. "Your bodacious body couldn't make me mad at you."

I chuckled. I tiptoed and kissed his lips briefly. It was a playful kiss.

"You look amazing tonight." He said.

I smiled. "Nick you've already seen me naked or with my underwear on me. This is nothing new to you."

"You always seem to surprise me." He says before pressing his lips on mine.

I moan softly on his lips the second I felt it on me while his grip on my cheek is starting to tighten a little but it's not hurting me. He starts walking me closer and closer to the bar then pushes my back against it. His hand running over my breast down to my stomach and then pulls my underwear to the side as he slides two fingers inside me.

"Oh my.." I moaned.

His tongue pressing against my tongue. His lips kissing me deeper but his fingers were pulling in and out slowly and sensually. I wanted to moan loud but I wouldn't want the others to know what we were doing here. My back was facing the kitchen door so he must be fully aware of the people walking or entering the kitchen cos I couldn't seem to hear footsteps or other sounds at all. I was so focused on his kiss. It felt like when we do it, I'm not fully aware of what's happening around me.

All of a sudden he quickly pulled himself away and his fingers slipped out of me. He fixed my underwear. "Someone's coming."

"Oh shit." I cursed.

I moved away from him quickly and the door swings open at the same time. He looked at us and the three of us were quiet. Deafeningly quiet. Nick starts walking closer to the refrigerator and looked for the ice that we reasoned a while ago.

"You've seen a bottle opener here?" Im glad it was just Alec.

I exhaled.

"No. You guys need one?" Nick asked while pulling out the ice pack.

"Yeah. Oh, there it is." Alec grabbed it.

"Hurry up with ice, bro." He called out as he head out of the kitchen.

I breathe in fully then exhaled. Nick glared at me. "You alright?"

I just nod as I start walking to the door. He was just right behind me while we walked along the hallways of this house. Suddenly he rubs my arm with his free hand as we stood on is closed front door, "Relax. Don't forget to breathe."

"We almost got caught, Nick." I said.

"Almost." He says then steals a kiss from my lips before opening the door.

I bent my head down with a smile on my face as I walk out of the door. Both of us finally joined the others and I sat down with Aries on the bonfire while Nick was busy preparing the drinks with Alec but still gazing at us. Every time he looks at me being with Aries, I feel if like he's jealous. He makes me think that he doesn't want me around Aries. His gazes feels like it's giving me a warning telling that me he owns me and I'm not allowed to flirt but he has no hold on me. He said no commitment but why do I feel like he's jealous? Or is it just my mind thinking much?

Finally the others joined the bonfire with us and we made a little circle. Tracy sat right next to me and Nick was sitting right across of where I was right next to Alec. Romeo starts giving out beers to us and I don't think I'm drinking much tonight cos I wouldn't wanna end up that night I was insanely wasted.

"To Tracy." Romeo raised his bottle.

All of us did the same.

"Happy birthday." I whispered to her.

She smiles and gave me a quick hug. "Thanks Savannah."

The bonfire started off with some jokes started by Alec and all of us were just laughing along then a few horror stories. Since no one from the circle knows how to play a guitar, they just turned the music a little louder. Penny was already grinding on her seat and eyeing in Nick. She's such a bitch. She gets bitchier when alcohol's already inside her system.

"How about...." Penny starts to speak.

All of us turned to her.

"We play spin the bottle!" She chimed while pulling out an empty bottle.

The first time I played spin the bottle with them, it wasn't as memorable as I want it to be. Me and Nick ended up fighting and I ended up crying. Everyone seemed so game with it and I personally think it's too childish for them to play. They moved away from the bonfire so it won't be in the middle of us. A half circle was made and Nick was still sitting right across me.

"You're playing angel?" Aries asked.

"Yeah. The first time I played this with them seemed a bit outrageous for me."

"But you're going to play again?" He asked again.

I nod. "Yeah. You know what they say, you wouldn't have fun if you won't try it again."

He chuckle. "Right."

"Are you playing this time Tracy?" Romeo asked.

"Yes. I want to." Tracy chimed.

"No. You're not." Nick spit.

All of us turned quiet.

"Nick let her join. She's already twenty. She's not a kid anymore." Megan says.

"And Savannah's the youngest here but she's playing anyways." Alex added.

"Tracy's my sister but Savannah is just my..." He looked at me and paused with what he was going to say to us.

I looked back at him. His sex buddy.

"She's just someone I met." Nick added.

I bit my lip then dropped my head down as I was secretly pinching the skin in my wrist. It hurt me when he said that. It's really hurting me. What he said was true but why is it breaking my heart? I know we should stay as a secret and we talked about it to have it that way but why does it hurt? Why does it hurt being neglected right in front of your face? I couldn't look at Nick any longer cos I feel so mad. But why am I mad at him?

"Nick you don't need to go that far. Savannah's my friend and you're being rude to her again. And I'm playing whether you like it or not." Tracy states.

They started playing right away and I wasn't in the mood to play at all. I wasn't even paying attention them, they were all joyous and were laughing by the ridiculous dates they're giving out. I was smiling ruefully and I always feel that Nick is looking at me, waiting for me to turn to him or glance a little bit at him but my eyes were glued on the spinning bottle. My eyes widened.

"Your turn Savannah!!" Tracy chimed.

"And I'm the one to give you your dare." Penny states.

Great. Why does it had to be her who played before me?

"Truth or dare?" Penny arched an eyebrow.

"Dare." I said right away.

Tracy seemed shock cos she turned to face me. Penny was smiling evilly, "Great choice."

I gulped.

I feel like I wanna take it back now.

"I want you Savannah to French kiss...." Penny moved her head to Nick.

Oh goodness no! I can't kiss him in public, everyone in this circle possibly know about his eight years of abstinence. Alec seemed tensed as well and Nick was just looking at me. All of them turned to where Penny was starting.

"Aries." Penny continued and then she stared at Aries.

"Me?" Aries asked in disbelief.

Penny smiled. "Yes you."

Aries glanced at me and Nick's muscle changed. I know it did. His eyebrows were creasing. My heart is going rapid and I can't kiss Aries in front of Nick. It'll be awkward. It'll make Nick think that it's.... Why am

I worried about it how Nick will react or feel? I'm sure as fuck he doesn't care. I can kiss any guy I want. It's not on the rules anyways. I moved my head to Aries.

"Savannah are you sure about this?" Aries asked.

"Yeah. It's just for the dare." I answered.

He nods.

"We need to see the tongue." Penny added with a smile.

The others were cheering for us but as I glance at Nick he was just looking while taking a drink from his bottle of beer. Curse you Penny.

I fully faced Aries and he faced me too. His hand now holding my cheek while he was starting to lean towards me little by little and every time I feel him closer and closer, my heart is pumping hard. I hear them cheering and cheering. I closed my eyes the second Aries closed his and boom, we kissed. I opened my mouth slightly and his lips starts to move. I move along his pace and I finally feel his tongue inside my mouth.

The feeling isn't the same when I kiss Nick. There's no butterflies in my stomach. There's no imaginary fireworks or losing my ability to think. No spark at all. I was just plainly kissing Aries cos I was told to do so. I pulled myself away and Aries was smiling at me.

"You were amazing." He complimented.

I just smiled.

The game went on and now I'm constantly glaring at Nick. I always feel his piercing gaze at me, as if it was a laser, going into my skin then into my soul. The bottle tip pointed to him and they cheered. He was

the only one who wasn't able to play.

"Truth." Nick answered.

Tracy seemed surprised. "Wow. I thought you don't like answering questions."

"I'm too lazy to do a dare." He says.

"Alright Nick. My question is..." Romeo called out.

I stared at Romeo.

"When was the last time..." He trailed off.

You had sex? I closed my fist. No. Not that question. I wouldn't know how to accept his answer.

"You saw a naked woman? Not on pictures or videos. But right in front of you." Romeo snorted.

Alec and the others laughed as if they already know the answer. I placed my lip in between my teeth and kept my gaze at Nick secretly.

"Two nights ago." Nick answered, moving his eyes at me briefly.

Me. It was me. Inside his car. Don't smile Savannah. Oh god lips please don't smile.

"Really?! Why didn't you tell me about her man?!" Alec chimed while moving Nick.

"Who was it Nick? Is she from WSU too?" Romeo asked.

"I'm sure it's not from WSU." Aries added.

"I think it's from WSU." Clyde seconded.

Tracy was just smiling and laughing at him. "Who is she Nick?"

Me, Tracy.

"I can't tell you who she is. But she's was a very very beautiful girl. I loved the view I saw that night. I loved every corner of her body." Nick answers as he looks at me when he says the last sentence. He meant

it, I felt it that he did meant it for me.

It automatically send shivers to my body. I'm not biting my lip hard cos I don't want to smile. I don't want them to know that it's me. Damn it Nick.

It's every little thing you do that makes me know how much I'm falling more in love with you.

SFTC:

Uncover - Zara Larsson