Life After the Storm

It can't be true. She couldn't have done all this. She is the only person who Landon has that he loves. I become confused on how the world has become. I know families have their issues, but my family, we would have never betrayed each other. No matter what the cost would have been.

Ivan has no reason to lie. What I am curious about is why she would give it to him. She would have known that I would figure it out, eventually. Is she trying to blow her cover? Or is something worst coming? I hate all the deceit that is happening. I will not stand for it. If she wants to play this game, then fine. I will play until I find Jayden and he's with me.

I look at Ivan with a Stern face, "do not speak of me being here tonight and what we talked about."

He looks at me. I can see that he's worried, but he does not admit it he shakes his head and, says, "yes alpha"!

I don't know what's going to happen, but what I do know is I will find Jayden. She wants to play this game, then fine, let's play. There is no doubt in my mind that II can't defeat her. She will pay for what she has done. Not by physical harm, I will not hurt her. I prefer not to be the person who tortures others. It will be worse than physical harm, She will lose something that means more, her family.

I turn around and walk out the door of Ivan's cabin. I'm so angry. She just watched Landon grieve for his son. When she was the reasoning behind all of it. I can't be a 100% sure, but I'm pretty confident that she has him. What I need to figure out is where she is keeping him. Happy that she hadn't gone as far as hurting him.

Maybe it is because she knows that if she would hurt him, that Landon and I both would feel his pain. Nervous that if she doesn't get what she wants, will she go as far as hurting him? Knowing that she is not caring about the suffering that she has caused Landon by taking Jayden and hiding him.

I feel like such a fool. How could I have been so blind? I knew that something was off, but I ignored it, and now I will be paying for it. I wish Landon was here, so we could come up with a plan together. But I don't think he's ever coming back now. He's not just hurt, he's angry. He may feel the betrayal, but that's not what I meant by taking the Alpha role.

I don't understand why people look at me like I'm stupid, why she really thought that I would never find that she is the trader, or is it all the test? To see if I am capable of figuring out what is happening. I don't think that they would go to such lengths, but I don't know. I will not stand for it. I'm done.

I will allow no one to take someone I love ever again. I will find Jayden, and we will escape this pack. Then we will find Landon and get the fuck out of Alaska and never look back. I'm done with whatever the fuck this is. I just want to live a normal life.

As I'm walking into my cabin, I'm overwhelmed by all that I have learned. How am I going to tell Landon that his mother is the traitor, and she is involved with the killing of so many incidents and worst of all, that she has taken Jayden and kept it quiet for this long? How could she have betrayed her own son?

I need to come up with a plan on

how I'm going to figure out how I'm going to find Jayden. I have to make it out like have no idea what is really happening. I have to make her think that I trust her in order for her to truly trust me. Like her advice matters, I got it. I can make her my second in command. Let her think that she has won that I hold all my trust in her, but in reality, she's being played.

So let the games begin. I am relived in some ways knowing that Jayden is safe. But my relief does not take over my anger that I am feeling. I need to control myself. I can't act any different, if she notices the change then she might move Jayden to somewhere else have to be able to be myself and in front of her. She is a deceiving person, she will figure it out if I'm acting

different.

I decide to take a shower to attempt to ease myself. From all the anger I'm feeling, I want to scream, but I know I need to relax as hard as it may be. I need to. I have never been a deceiving person. Hoping I can be deceiving enough to save a person I care about. I have to show strength. I have to be able to do whatever is necessary to save him.

I get to the bathroom. As I am

undressing, I turn the water on to warm. My mind is everywhere. It's giving me a headache. I go to sit on the toilet to pee before I get into the shower. I feel the water, it's warmth giving me shivers. I turn the shower on and step in. Taking deep breaths, letting the hot water run over my body. I can feel relaxation, but the nervousness that, I feel, is not going away.

I just keep repeating to myself over and over again I can do this, I can do this. I have no other choice. I need to save him, I will save him because I can do this.☐☐☐☐☐☐☐☐☐☐☐☐☐☐☐