Life After the Storm

I feel more powerful now than I ever have now that I let myself feel for Landon and forgive him. I know that this will help make the right choice on what needs to be done with the pack. I just hope that Landon and I will agree on whatever is best for the pack. I still am curious why the pack still hasn't named Landon as the Alpha there really isn't anyone else that is more capable of keeping them safe than Landon God I hope they don't make a dumb decision.

I feel a strong-arm wrap around my waist. "Hey, Beautiful I'm going to go and get Jayden and get ready for the memorial."

"Wait, I thought we were going to talk about what will be best for the pack."

"Lilly, it's starting rather soon, and I need to make sure Jayden is ready. Can we finish this later please."

"I guess I just wanted to have a plan going in just in case the pack is in a dark place and just want revenge."

"Lilly it will be okay we will get our revenge you can count on that but let's remember those that we lost first."

"Revenge isn't what I seek, Landon, we need to come up with something else. I am tired of all this fighting, aren't you?"

"Lilly, we have to avenge those we cannot let them get away with it. Don't you think it would show weakness on our part as a pack?

"Maybe it shows strength as we forgive Those that hurt us. There is no doubt that we will be able to destroy them. I am just wondering if it's worth it."

"What do you mean if it's worth it they have hurt everybody around us, they've killed our loved ones you don't find that enough reason to hurt them back."

"Please Landon don't get upset with me, it's just I'm tired of all the violence I don't want this to be my life."

"If we don't fight back there's not going to be life for anyone."

I know that I upset him as I watch as he storms out of my bedroom. I feel sorry that we don't agree, but there has to be a time when enough is enough. I'm just tired of all this fighting As we remember those tha we have lost over and over again because of the battles just not coming to an end. I hate that he's not understanding me and seeing where I am coming from.

I decided to go shower before the memorial. I'm not sure what I was thinking about sleeping with Landon was the right move. I would like to think it was, but now I'm not sure If it should have happened. I know that I wanted it more than anything but was it the right decision.

I then go turn the faucet on as I let the water warm. I then test it as I touch it with my palm to make sure that it is the perfect temperature. Once it hits the perfect temperature I then pull the plug to start the shower. As I step into the shower and the hot water runs over my body I become relaxed. I then begin lathering my washcloth and begin washing the sex off of me.

It's almost like I forgot what it feels like to have a nice hot shower after some awesome sex. This is a feeling I could get used to all the time. I don't want to get out, I just want to stand under the hot water. It feels so good, oh my god. I know that I need to get out there is so much that needs to be done, but I'm frozen in time loving this moment.

It's nice to not feel anything, no

worries, just feeling good. I giggle to myself at how I'm making such a big deal out of a shower. It's the little things that truly mean the most this world. But then in insist my

world begins to shatter as my me!

the

bathroom door is swung open. I jump as I hear the door bang against the wall. I then swing the shower curtain open and go into defense mode ready to fight not knowing what is about to happen but wanting to be prepared.

I then see a teary-eyed Landon. "Lilly, they took him. He is gone. I can't find him. I searched the whole grounds, and he is nowhere to be found."

I am confused at first, not

understanding what he was talking

About. I then begin to go pale as fear begins to overcome me. As I begin to recall what he was going to do He was going to get Jayden ready for the memorial. Gone he said no he can't be gone no I won't accept that. Realizing I had been so consumed with myself I forgot about Jayden this can't be true he can't be talking about Jayden he can't be.

"Lilly, did you hear me they took him Jayden is gone."

I shut the shower off hoping that this is a dream but once I feel Landon's firm grip on my shoulder. I know that it is not. I am terrified and uncertain of what to say. Knowing nothing I say will make it alright. "Lilly, what are we going to do? We need to find him. God Lilly answer me, please.

"Landon this has to be a mistake he couldn't have been taken."

He is a child, no god please no. I fall to my knees in Desperation hoping that he is lying to me but knowing he is not. My knees smack against a tub I grip onto the shower curtain and pull it down out of anger ripping it. So much emotion is running through me, I'm so angry and so terrified. Hating the fact that when I was having the best time, Jayden was having the worst as he was getting kidnapped."