Killing My Alpha Mate

JADEN PERRY

The fight against Carter was unjust, not planned for, and entirely berserk but backing out from a challenge is worse than losing it.

My recent failures inaugurated me to the reality that everything I had and always wanted came on a silver platter.

Yes, I've done my fair part playing my role as Alpha but that was a small feat compared to the responsibilities I had been shielded from.

I was working as a pawn under my father. All decisions were made by him, battle strategies, resources, the budget, and taxes were all covered by my father.

Even responsibilities I didn't know I had were all done by my father but Carter did everything himself making me feel inferior.

I had always worked, giving out orders behind these walls but Carter made a show of accomplishing it all himself.

I don't feel an ounce of hatred for Carter, he was only taking back what is rightfully his, living in the shadows made me ponder if this was what I wanted for the rest of my life.

If my dad finally meets his demise I'll have to tackle it all myself, a job I thought I had trained all my life to take on but rather I was following a script I know nothing about.

Hailey was what hurt the most, her voice I always got lost in, her smile, and those eyes that reflected mine.

Her voice, her flower tattoo I traced with my fingers isolating myself from her had been the hardest decision of my life.

Every minute I hear her heart yearn for me, begging me even if it's just for a minute to embrace her and tell her everything will be alright.

Something I couldn't assure I not only failed this pack, but I also failed my mate.

I couldn't keep her safe, away from Aitch, away from Carter, away from my father. If anything ever happens to her I will never be able to forgive myself.

To ensure this, Carter is the logical option left. He could protect her, keep her safe and give her the best because she deserved it.

I believed she was not a befitting mate for me but I see how wrong I was, I was the one not good enough for an amazing girl like her.

She is perfect everything she did was amazing, it's not her face, not her size, not her lips, not her eye tests her soul and everything inside

My love for her was always real early mornings with her spending late nights with her must be the best part of my life.

My love for her will never fade however it may hurt, I needed to do this for her.

Sometimes I become forgetful, letting my thoughts skip and withdrawing after realizing it.

I know I was hurting her but with time I'm sure she'll learn to live without me.

The starting event, Carter's introduction, was the timer I'll leave this pack after she's made official Luna and start my journey as a rogue finding my own path and building a name outside the one Lord Perry gave. I feel her calling out to me wishing I see her in the beautiful dress just one last time I promise not to withhold myself.

I sneak outside her room, she steps out and I almost fall to my knees.

No other girl in this whole world came close to Hailey Stewart.

She is a woman I utterly adored, she is perfect, a gift from the moon goddess built utterly for perfection.

The dress complemented her curves but it was not the dress it's the woman inside I almost cried out at my loss.

She was one prize I'll give up the world for and here I was isolating myself instead of keeping her.

She's about to turn around stepping back rushing into the next room shutting the door hard.

One look from those angel eyes will ruin every ounce of self-control I had not to hold her in my arms.

My heart grows fonder of her each day I knew certainly I would never love another, I'll die lonely cherishing the love we once shared the nights we spent everything about us.

Reaching into my pocket I pull out the necklace I wanted to give her when she is given the crown as Luna, a goodbye gift, a reminder of our love but that dress needed this.

It won't hurt to get it to her as long as I'm not the one giving it to her.

The little child embarked on the task willingly following the instructions better than I would.

I'm glad to know though I failed them but they still cherished me.

Hailey's look at the child made my heart melt. She looked down on her like she was her own.

She made me think about it and really think about it, what having a child with her will be like.

Having our own little Hailey running through the house.

Those plans had been cut short when she looked up at me.

"You look beautiful my luna"

I wish she knows she is still the one for me, I love her and that's why I want the best for her and nothing else.

HAILEY STEWARTS

My legs are running toward where Jaden walked through but I'm stopped by guards.

"Let me through" I shout trying to squeeze myself through.

"Hailey" Carter whispers behind me

"Don't make a scene, where are you going to? your subjects await you don't want to get me angry do you?" He threatens smiling, any outlooker will think we were having a friendly conversation. Concealing my emotions I stand wearing a smile blinking back tears.

"Jaden you don't have the right to play with my emotions like this if you are hearing me this is unfair"

I say via mind link drowning in my loneliness as I walk into the stage.