Chapter 210
Sienna's sudden break-up seemed to have given me a warning, telling me not to act rashly, let alone have too much to do with Harrison.
But when did I start to have a crush on him?
From my point of view, I could see his expression clearly. Naturally, he also saw his frowning face. I felt a little uneasy, but I still forced myself to say, "It seems that their separation today has made me understand and meddle in things, just like the two of us."
"What happened between us?" he asked.
I didn't know if he really didn't understand, or if he was pretending to be confused. My heart was in a mess.
Abbie's face suddenly flashed across my mind, as well as her arrogance in front of me more than once, saying that Harrison would stand by her side sooner or later. Thinking of Sienna and Jonah, I was even more panicked.
From the beginning till now, what right did I have to compete with Abbie? Could it be that I was younger, prettier, or richer than her? Since when did I start to turn a blind eye and not even consider what was happening in front of me?
"There's nothing between us. I've always had a different feeling for you. You promised me that you would help me, you gave me money, and I gave you..." I suddenly shut up because I really couldn't say the word 'body'.
"Can I seriously explain to Harrison that we have always been in the same exchange? Maybe it's not in the same exchange, but Harrison helped me more. He has helped me in many ways."
"From the matter of my mother being hospitalized, the matter of the loan sharks, to the entanglement between Callen and Maisy and me, and even the work problems I encountered, which one of them wasn't Harrison's help? I thought about it for a while, but none of them was able to distance themselves from Harrison."
I tore off the mask of reality and felt extremely sad.
At this time, Harrison, who had not spoken for a long time, suddenly opened his mouth and looked at me coldly. "Is this what you want to say to me?"
I shuddered and looked up at him. He was expressionless, but I didn't say a word for a long time.
"I didn't expect you to see us like this. You stood in front of me with your body in exchange for money and what you want. Is that true?"
When he asked me, his voice was calm. With his expressionless face, I felt scared just like that.
But I didn't allow myself to retreat like this. I clenched my fists and braced myself to say, "Am I wrong? We were together because of this. We are different from others. We are even worse than Sienna and Jonah, who have emotional roots."
"No, Sienna has sacrificed his feelings. I don't know if Jonah is sincere or not. Maybe in your eyes, Sienna and I are just playthings.
Isn't the world of rich people like this?"
When I said this, I remembered that when I first met Harrison, he took me to a banquet but didn't accompany me. Because it had been too long, I forgot that I didn't accompany him. I only remembered that a man deliberately wandered around in front of me and seduced me.
What was even more ridiculous was that the man was the lover of one of the rich women in the banquet. Generally speaking, he was just a man who sold his body!
Then what about me? What's the difference between me and that man?
"I can pretend that I didn't hear what you said today. Have a good rest. I'll go back first." After that, Harrison turned around and left.
Looking at his figure walking toward the car, I inexplicably panicked. It seemed that as soon as he left today, he would completely disappear from my sight. So the next second, I rushed up and hugged him from behind.
Time seemed to have stopped at this moment. We stood on the road without saying a word. I, who was lying behind him, could feel that his emotions were unstable and he was slowly calming down. "What exactly do you want?" he asked me.
I answered softly, "I don't know. I don't know what I want to do, but I'm just scared."
"What are you afraid of?" As he spoke, he separated me from his arms.
Although I was very dissatisfied with his actions, I didn't say it out loud. I just held his hand tightly again.
He must have given up on my shameless behavior, so he let go of my hand and let me hold him. "If you don't let me go, then we'll just stand here for the whole night."
Naturally, I thought he was angry, so I reluctantly let go of his hand, but I didn't want to look up at him anymore.
"Tell me everything you're afraid of," Harrison said calmly.
From his tone, I couldn't hear any emotion, which made me even more uncertain. I kept stirring my fingers to cover up the uneasiness in my heart, but Harrison seemed to have made up his mind to fight with me to the end. He didn't say anything before I spoke.
It was very quiet on the street in the early morning. It would take about ten minutes to get a car, and the two of us were also standing on the road.
In the end, I gave up the stalemate. "Don't you understand?"
"No matter how clear it is, you still need to say it," he said.
I paused and slowly looked up at him. Because he was carrying light on his back, I couldn't see his expression clearly. But I could imagine that he must be expressionless or angry with me.
If he was angry, then I would only feel more wronged.
"Women are prone to worrying about gains and losses. This is the fact that has never changed since ancient times. So when I face you, I will be more worried about gains and losses. This is the reason why I am afraid." I took a deep breath and said seriously.
I thought Harrison would get bored after hearing what I said. Normally, men hate women like this, but I didn't expect him to laugh out loud without giving me any face.
I bit my lip and squeezed out a sentence from my mouth, "If you find it funny, you can continue to laugh. I'm going back!"
After that, I went past him and wanted to run away from him.
Harrison must have guessed what she was thinking. He grabbed her hand and stopped her from leaving. "It's normal to worry about gains and losses. You should tell me directly."
"Is it useful to tell you?" I chuckled and said, "What do you think of our relationship now? After all, it's normal for us to break up with Sienna. But what about us? Will you go out and tell others that I am your girlfriend? Will you be generous when you break up with me? Don't you mind that others don't care about my eyes when they hear about my past?"
After saying these words in one breath, I was completely relaxed. I stared at Harrison closely, which was better than every expression on his face. After a while, I also figured out what had happened. Instead of continuing to guess, I might as well talk about everything.