Finding Forgiveness

Andrea's POV

I drove at 90 mph through the Colombian countryside after my Vacation to Washington state.

I'd achieved all I set out to do and with all necessary preparations planted within Loren's territory, everything is ready.

His men may be more disciplined and loyal than mine but my plan is smart and unpredictable. The Alpha has no idea what I was really doing in his pack and it might just give me the edge.

I'd also seen his mate again. I couldn't deny how good it felt to hold her, feel her beautiful body in my hands and watch as she shudders and cowers away from me, completely helpless. She used to be so fierce and confident but I turned her into a shivering wreck within seconds. It was satisfying to watch but nowhere near as good as it was going to be when I kill her..when she is finally truly mine.

The fear that will be in her eyes, the way she'll beg, the way she'll plead. But she has to die first.

Before her Alpha, before her kids, before her pack.

It is Alpha Loren I will leave until last and him who I want to suffer. She may have run from me but only because of him.

We could have had a life together. We could have been happy.

But because of her mate, we never could. For as long as she lives, she can never be mine because she will always love him. So she has to die because I have to have her. She has to be mine.

I'll put my hands on her throat and watch as she struggles. For just a moment, I'll have complete power over her. She won't be thinking about anything or anyone else. And then the life will drain away and the last thing she sees will be me. The last things she feels will be me. The last thought she has will be me. She'll be mine forever. No more opportunities to escape, no more second chances.

I finally reached the drive to my new house. I stepped out the car and threw the keys straight at the closest man before marching inside. "Sefior," he said running to keep up with me.

"What?" I snapped.

"There's a man here to see you," he replied, slightly out of breath. "Who? I'm not expecting any visitors," I said, not bothering to slow down for his sake.

"Luciano Megestanis,” he replied.

I suddenly stopped.

He was able to catch up and I heard him breathe a sigh of relief which was immediately retracted as I turned to face him.

"And why is he not dead?" I asked with a raised eyebrow.

He gulped and shifted his eyes to the floor, "He says he has an offer.” "I don't take offers from traitors. Where is he? I'll kill him myself,” I growled turning back towards the house.

"In your office,” the man called.

I stepped into the house and went straight into my office.

I opened the door to see him sat comfortably in my chair, reading one of my books from the shelf. I clenched my jaw as he looked up and his eyes glinted.

"Andrea!" he said. "Long time no see.”

"You have guts to come here, Luciano," I hissed.

He shrugged, "I've done nothing wrong."

"The night she escaped you returned with her scent all over you, suggesting you were with her... yet she still got away. Explain that, Luciano,” I replied.

"You may believe what you like, Martinez," he said. "But I came here to offer my help.”

I leant forward and smiled, "Your help?"

"Against Alpha Loren."

"And why would I trust you?" I spat.

He shrugged, "Because you need me."

"I need you?" I laughed.

"I admire your confidence and you may have all these men and weapons and allies and plans....but so does Loren and you know it. You are both powerful men and the win could go either way. Do you really wanna risk it?" he asked.

I narrowed my eyes. He had a point. I wouldn't admit it but Leonardo Loren was not an easy target.

"And what do you have to offer?”

He smiled and gestured for me to take a seat the seat opposite him. "This is my office, I don't need you to tell me I can sit down,” I grumbled before begrudgingly sitting.

He smiled, satisfied I'd agreed to at least consider what he has to say. "I used to be in that pack and I know Leo better than many. I know how he conducts his army, their strengths, their weakness, the loopholes. And it's a big pack with lakes, mountains, gushing rivers and cliffs to get in the way but I know it like the back of my hand. Even having someone just to tell you the geography would be a huge help.”

I narrowed my eyes, still not convinced.

"I'm also already halfway to earning the Alpha's trust again,” I added. His eyes snapped up, "So you did let him get her back," he growled. He shrugged, "And you could kill me for it but..."

I lurched forward grabbed him around the collar before pulling him onto the desk.

He only smiled in amusement, "You aren't going to kill me."

With that, I pulled my gun from my belt and pressed the tip against his skull

"Oh yeah?" I asked, "You think because you know where a few lakes and rivers are I need you? Ever heard of google earth?"

"Did I forget to mention this?" he asked thrusting a crumpled piece of paper towards me.

"What the fuck is this?" I asked reading the numbers written on it. "The exact coordinates of one of three underground vaults Leonardo will hide his Luna and his kids in when you attack,” he said. "If you want the other two, I'd keep those bullets in the gun.”

I glared at him for a few seconds more.

"I know you want more than the Alphas death and his pack,” he continued. "You want her. You can't relax until you have her.”

I let out a low grumble before releasing him.

"Fine," I said eventually.

"You're seriously fucked up, dude. Mommy issues?" he asked

I felt my lip twitch.

"Looks like I hit a nerve," he teased.

"You will help me. But under my conditions.”

"Of course,” he said, holding out his hand.

I looked down at his hand, hesitated for a moment before reaching forward and firmly taking his hand.

"First condition: you will not ask me about my life. My Mother especially,” I growled.

"Your wish is my command. Besides, what is there to ask..? She abandoned you years ago, right? Nothing more to it."

I clenched my jaw.

"How do you know that?" I hissed.

"My cousin told me of course. We're very close. She tells me everything,” Luciano replied.

Ella was the first person I had ever told about my childhood. She had been missing home and trying desperately to seek some kind of humanity in me. So for just a few minutes, I'd let her have the slight comfort of finding it.

I knew I'd live to regret it and here we are.

I stepped forward and looked Luciano right in the eye. He didn't look away or seem in any way affected by my glare.

"Never mention this again,” I growled.

He did nothing but stand up and walk towards the door.

"I'll be back this evening with the other coordinates," he said before leaving my office and then the house.

I hate him thoroughly and I hate letting people get away with disrespecting me.

But unfortunately, he is right.

When I attack, I have to find Ella before I find Loren and for that, I need to know where he will hide her.