novelxo Chapter CHAPTER 19
ANITA'S POV.
I couldn't believe it myself. As I headed out to confirm that he was actually there, waiting for me, my heart kept on thudding in my chest. I wished that he was actually there so that I don't look like I am delusional. Deep down I knew that he felt something for me and this was a perfect moment for him to show me that he really cares about me.
I quickened my footsteps. I was going to hug him tightly and kiss him when I found him waiting for me. I was not going to waste any more time. This is what I have been meaning to do ever since I found out that I was in love with him. Failing to find him right outside my window confirmed to me that I had officially started obsessing over him. Why did I hear his scent yet he was nowhere to be seen? My brain was totally playing games with me.
All the hopes of a nice future with us being together come to an abrupt end. This moment gave me a reality check that what I wanted from him was never going to happen. I was pretty much wasting my time.
I had been lost in my own delusions thinking that Alpha Robin would one day pick me but he hasn't. Maybe I should just accept it and move on with my life.
Tears were slowly building up in my eye as I held my hand against my chest. My heart had broken into tiny little leaves bringing me immense pain. I couldn't bear the pain, this is too much for me to handle, I am completely devastated.
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ALPHA ROBIN'S POV
I was so caught up listening to Harry and doing what he wanted. By the time I was coming to my senses, I was right outside the window of her room, waiting to tell her that I wanted her to work for me in my quarters. Immediately I realised that Harry has led me to this yet he is always emotional, I quickly ran to the field, did five laps before heading back to my quarters.
I was sweating profusely as I removed my wet t-shirt and went ahead to walk into the cold shower. Harry was trying to talk to me but I had totally blocked him. I was not ready to love. He could be ready but I am not healed yet. I don't want to end up heartbroken. To choose to love is in one way or the other choosing your heart to be broken. There can never be love without pain.
I wished that she was my first love. I wished that I could be able to love her with all that intensity and be sure that she won't do anything to hurt me but I couldn't. All I remember is walking into my ex-girlfriend moaning loudly as she was being pounded by the man that I hated the most. To date, I can't trust any woman. I once trusted and it didn't end up well for me.
"You might avoid her all you want, you can continue with your act of being cold towards her but the truth is that you love her immensely. You have fallen in love with her, more than you did with your ex-girlfriend," Harry finally spoke to me after I was done with the shower.
"Shut up Harry! You don't know what you are talking about. I am not in love with her," I countered.
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"You love her, you have fallen in love with her. Your cold arrogant heart has fallen in love with her," He repeated and I could feel my stomach become a pit of nerves. I felt so defeated. Deep down I knew that Harry was accurate about this and this is what scared me the most.
"No that is not true," I continue to defend myself hoping that by doing so, I will stop loving her. I cannot love her.
"You should say yes to her before someone does. I wonder how you will react when you find her kissing someone else. Now that you have not claimed her, someone else will and I am telling you for free, if that other person gives her all the attention that you have been failing to give her, she will forget about you completely.
"But you said she loves me. How will she be able to choose someone else?" I countered. I was scared that she might actually choose to be with someone else since I have not been giving her the love that she desired. "You ignored me. I guess this is my time to ignore you," Harry said and I couldn't take it. I threw my first in the air in anger. I needed a release. I was angered with the thought of her being with someone else. Harry didn't reply back and this made me so uneasy. I needed him to say something. All these deep emotions were new, he was supposed to be there for me and help me navigate them.
As I was thinking of convincing Harry to hear me out, I felt her scent so close to me.
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"Shit!" I cursed as I wore my tight fitting t-shirt and sweatpants.
I really hoped that she had not broken the rules all over again. I had warned her about coming to my quarters at night but she just didn't seem to listen.
Wearing my flip flops, I left the house and hurried to go and meet up with her.
She was seated in the garden, her hair was pushed back making her as beautiful as ever, I really wanted to give her a chance. She didn't seem to notice me until I arrived. She was also lost in thoughts. "What are you doing here, I thought that we talked about this," I said.
"What were you doing right outside my window? How about you tell me about that," She said, throwing me off guard.