Chapter 174
Chapter 174
Because that’s what it’s all about, after all, Kent thinks ruefully.
Control. Everything is about control – controlling his life, his world,
the underworld, his business ventures, the threats to his power
and everything he and his family have built. He has to keep a tight
fist around all of it – absolutely all of it – or it will fall apart.
And Fay-
Somehow, fucking Fay-
This wisp of a girl, this tiny, naïve, coltish thing who knows absolutely nothing about this world –
Somehow, she is the thing that threatened to undo it all. Because
she makes him absolutely lose control. With her, he has no idea
what he will do next.
And the intensity of how he feels towards her – how much he wants her… Yes, on one level it’s a physical desire – but Kent is forced to admit, now, laying on the floor staring at his ceiling that it goes beyond that. That the magnitude of what he feels is not just
a desire for a woman he seeks to control, but…
God damn it.
It’s a real, true pull towards her that he hasn’t felt since he first met
Chapter 174
2/3
his wife. And the pull–it’s inexorable. Heavy, like the chain of an anchor wrapped around his feet. Like gravity, with Fay at the
center of the earth.
And this, all of this? The scaring her, the need to break her, to make her submit – it was all a fight against the power of that pull.
But deep down, he knows, it’s like the ocean fighting the moon’s sway over the tides. He can crash all he wants, but Fay is the force that calls the still waters within him to her. Makes them rise so high
he thinks he might drown.
Give in, the voice inside himself whispers. Just swim down.
But god damn it, he can’t. He can’t.
Because if Kent gives in to just this one thing, the rest will fall – like
dominoes, or a loose string on a sweater. It will all fall apart.
And so Kent lays for hours on that floor, trapped, stuck like a bug
pinned to a board, torn between opposing forces. The first desire,
the stronger one, is to let it all collapse as he takes her in his arms.
That desire’s insidious twin, however, still whispers into his ear
that if he just pushes a little harder…he can break her. Make her
fall in line. That he can have her in his world, just as he likes her –
that he can make her fit.
Kent agonizes over it, truly torn over the question of which path to take, because he knows that these are the only two paths in his life. Because any option that keeps Fay out of his life…
Chapter 174
Well. It’s just not an option. Not anymore.
3/3
Kent has to come up with a plan. But all the while that he agonizes
over his two options, a voice murmurs in the back of his mind that
neither of these options really considers the true threat of the
situation:
The very real possibility that Fay will break him first.
And take it all for herself.
2
Write your comment
Gifts
Fall For My Ex’s Mafia Father