Daughter of the Mafia's Consigliere

MARIANNE.

Oliver only chuckled and continued eating pretending not to hear what I just told him. I dropped my cutleries and sighed heavily, I'm sure he is never going to believe I'm actually breaking up with him.

I thought hard about it throughout last night and came to the conclusion that it's best I just end everything with Oliver. He deserves someone better.

It's not okay if we keep seeing each other in secret; every other person thinks I'm married to Ricardo already. I feel like I'm selfish if I keep up with my relationship with him. For how long are we going to keep seeing each other in secret? He deserves a healthy relationship with another lady, my life is already messed up after getting married to a Mafia family and there is no slight chance that I'm going to get out of this mess.

It's better I just cut every single tie with Oliver, he should stay far away and live better while I deal with my fucked up life.

Come to think of it, what would happen to us if Giovanni finds out about me and Oliver? I'm pretty sure that he won't hurt me but would hurt the one I love, which is Oliver. I wouldn't like him to get hurt because of me, it would only leave me traumatized for the rest of my life.

It's hard letting go of him but I just had to even though I'm being eaten up by guilt. Oliver obviously loves and cares about me so much, too bad I would be losing a good man who would fill my life with so much joy and make me happy for the rest of my life.

"Oliver, let's end our relationship, I can't do this with you anymore. I made my final decision last night and I think it's best I stick to the one I'm officially married to even though things might not seem rosy for us." I said defiantly trying to be mean and he suddenly let out a loud laugh.

Does he think I'm joking or playing pranks?

"Babe, you shouldn't ruin the mood with your nonsense pranks okay? Let's just enjoy this short time we have together and make adorable memories, we don't know when next..."

I had to interrupt him because it seemed he was taking my words for a joke.

"I'm being for real Oliver, let's break up, you deserve someone better. You've done a lot for me and I don't want to be a burden to you anymore, I don't want to stress you.

I've hurt you enough by getting married to another guy, I don't deserve you so please, let's split up and move on."

"Marianne, are you being serious? Break up? It better be a joke, Why?" Oliver asked and I could see the confused and hurtful expression on his face.

"You are seriously asking me why? Where does our relationship lead if we keep seeing each other in secret? How comfortable are you with continuing a relationship with a lady who officially got married to another man? We fucking exchanged vows and made promises right in the church, I'm not just going to ignore that.

Let's not prolong this issue, let's say our final goodbyes now. I hope we never cross paths and I hope I never see you again!" I stood up after uttering those words and walked off immediately.

I had to speak harshly to him so I wouldn't end up bursting into tears and crying in his arms.

If I had spoken softly to him, he might have just shut me up with a kiss, begged me to stay and I would have been caught up in between trying to make the decision of breaking up with him or not. "Marianne!" Oliver suddenly yelled my name and I stopped in my tracks.

He approached where I was standing and suddenly grabbed my hands tightly.

"You can't do that to me! You can't leave me, you can't give up on our love just like that. How do you expect me to live without you? Did you know how I was able to survive for weeks when you went missing? I almost lost my mind, please don't ruin my mental health by ending things with me.

If you break up with me now, it would look like you truly abandoned me for another guy." Oliver begged and I sniffed trying to hold back my tears.

I wriggled my wrist from his hold and shook my head negatively.

"I've made up my mind already, it's for the best." I said and began walking off but he blocked me again.

"This is not my woman, this is not the Marianne I fell for, she would never leave or hurt my feelings. I know you too well, you love me so much and I love you more. Is there something you're not telling me or is there more to this forced marriage? Tell me if that guy Ricardo is threatening or mistreating you. If you don't want this, then you can actually get out of this! If you stand your ground and take this issue to court, it will be resolved. You have to fight for your rights, you can't allow your mother to ruin your life because of her selfish interest.

Ricardo doesn't look like a guy that can take care of you, you know I wouldn't want anybody to hurt you right? So please, let's not break up, we will figure this out together, you have to believe me." Oliver pleaded and I could hear how shaky his voice was becoming.

If only he understood the reason why we can't be together anymore, I'm only trying to look out for him.

He grabbed my two hands tightly this time and looked straight into my eyes, his own eyes were becoming teary already.

"You shouldn't forget the promises we've made to each other. There is no relationship that doesn't encounter storms, this is our own storm and we have to face it together. Getting married to Ricardo doesn't mean you're entitled to him, you both can get divorced if your mom or his family tries to stop you, you file a case against them, and I would firmly be by your side." Oliver suggested.

I gulped so hard as I stared at him with pity in my eyes. If I keep acting softly towards him, I might give in and it would only make things worse.

It's hard for me too because breaking up with Oliver is also equivalent to agreeing to finally submit myself as a wife to that prick head.

"I know all of that but I chose not to involve anyone else in this, I'm just going to accept my fate. I'm going to be fine and I'm sure you will move on soon, you should just know I'm doing this for the best. I wish you good luck Oliver, thanks for making my life memorable during the times we were together." I disengaged my hands from his hold and pushed him out of my way before walking away. I'm not going to stop or look back at him again this time.

"Marianne! You can't do this, I'm never going to give up on you because you've always been mine. You just wait and see, I will have you back, I must!" Oliver screamed and I increased my pace as my tears finally fell. The other guests were already beginning to stare, it must have been like an emotional movie scene for them.

I got back to my lodged room and jumped on my bed straightway, I covered myself completely with the duvet and cried my eyes out.

I wasn't sure of the exact reason why I was crying, I wasn't that hurt because I broke up with Oliver, I don't know why.

Months back, I thought I might die if I ever left Oliver but look at me now.

I feel more anguished because of the ugly fate I was subjected to, I feel so sorry for myself.

I didn't know what else to do that could help ease the pain I was feeling in my chest.

I just brought out all the wines I found in the room, not caring it was alcoholic or not, I began gulping all of them while telling a story of my fucked up life to the four walls.

I kept lamenting till night came and I was done with all the wine with the empty bottles scattered all over. I was drunk and I was seeing things in two's and three's already.

I crawled to the mini telephone on the table that enabled customer contact with the hotel service support, I then ordered more alcoholic drinks and wine. I just wanted to get drunk till I couldn't drink anymore.

A few minutes later, a male server brought in the wine after I opened the door for him.

I just kept muttering gibberish words as I wasn't in the right frame of my mind anymore.

Before I knew what was happening, the male server began touching me weirdly but I was too drunk to react.

In the next second, the male server threw me on the bed and came on top of me, he then pinned my two hands on the bed.

"Let...go...of me..." I muttered drunkenly as I kept slapping him lightly, I was beginning to lose my vision completely already.