novelxo Chapter : One Last Thing Before I Go
From: Camila Dunne
To: Julia Dunne Rodriguez, Susana Dunne, Maria Dunne Date: November 5, 2012 11:41 P.M.
Subject: Your Dad
Hi Girls,
I need your help.
After I’m gone, give your dad some time. And then please tell him to call Daisy Jones. Her number is in my date book in the second drawer of my nightstand.
Tell your father I said at the very least, the two of them owe me a song.
Love,
Mom
Trouble starts when I come around
Everything’s painted red when I’m in town
Light me up and watch me burn it down
If you’re anointing a devil, I’ll take my crown Foot on the gas, add fuel to the fire
I’m already high and going higher
Charging faster, ready to ignite
Headed for disaster, chasing the night
You turn wrong when you turn right
White light at first sight
Oh, you’re chasing the night
But it’s a nightmare chasing you
Life’s coming to me in flashes
Wearing my bruises like badges
Don’t know when I learned to play with matches Must want it all to end in ashes
Foot on the gas, add fuel to the fire
I’m already high and going higher
Charging faster, ready to ignite
Headed for disaster, chasing the night
You turn wrong when you turn right
White light at first sight
Oh, you’re chasing the night
But it’s a nightmare chasing you
Foot on the gas, add fuel to the fire
I’m already high and going higher
Foot on the gas, add fuel to the fire
Look me in the eye and flick the lighter Oh, you’re chasing the night
But it’s a nightmare, honey, chasing you
The ugly you got in you
Well, I got it, too
You act like you ain’t got a clue
But you do
Oh, we could be lovely
If this could get ugly
Write a list of things you’ll regret
I’d be on top smoking a cigarette
Oh, we could be lovely
If this could get ugly
The things you run from, baby, I run to
And I know it scares you through and through
No one knows you like I do
Try to tell me that ain’t true
Oh, we could be lovely
If this could get ugly
C’mon now, honey
Let yourself think about it
Can you really live without it?
Oh, we could be lovely
If this could get ugly
Impossible woman
Let her hold you
Let her ease your soul
Sand through fingers
Wild horse, but she’s just a colt
Dancing barefoot in the snow
Cold can’t touch her, high or low
She’s blues dressed up like rock ’n’ roll
Untouchable, she’ll never fold
She’ll have you running
In the wrong direction
Have you coming
For the wrong obsessions
Oh, she’s gunning
For your redemption
Have you headed
Back to confession
Sand through fingers
Wild horse, but she’s just a colt
Dancing barefoot in the snow
Cold can’t touch her, high or low
She’s blues dressed up like rock ’n’ roll
Untouchable, she’ll never fold
Walk away from the impossible
You’ll never touch her
Never ease your soul
You’re one more impossible man
Clutching what you stole
Baby, I keep trying to turn away
I keep trying to see you a different way
Baby, I keep trying
Oh, I keep trying
I gotta give up and turn this around
There’s no way up when you’re this far down
And, baby, I keep trying
Oh, I keep trying
I keep trying to turn this off
But, baby, you keep turning me on
I keep trying to change how I feel
Keep trying to tell myself that this isn’t real Baby, I keep trying
Oh, I keep trying
Can’t take off when there’s no runway ahead
And I can’t get caught up in this all over again Baby, I keep trying
Oh, I keep trying
I keep trying to turn it off
But, baby, you keep turning me on
I’m on my knees, my arms wide
I’m finding ways to stay alive
Lord knows I’m pleading, pleading
To keep this heart still beating, beating
I keep trying to turn it off
But, baby, you keep turning me on
Baby, I’m dying
I can’t keep selling
What you’re not buying
So I keep trying to turn it off
And, baby, you keep turning me on
I’m on my knees, my arms wide
I’m finding ways to stay alive
Lord knows I’m pleading, pleading
To keep this heart still beating, beating
I keep trying to turn it off
But, baby, you keep turning me on
Please me
Please release me
Touch me and taste me
Trust me and take me
Say the things left unsaid
It’s not all in my head
Tell me the truth, tell me you think about me
Or, baby, you can forget about me
Please me
Please release me
Relieve me and believe me
Maybe you can redeem me
Say the things left unsaid
It’s not all in my head
Tell me the truth, tell me you think about me
Or, baby, you can forget about me
I know that you want me
Know that you wanna hold me
Know that you wanna show me
Know that you wanna know me
Well do something and do it quick
Not much more I can stand of this
Say the things left unsaid
Don’t act like it’s all in my head
Tell me the truth, tell me if you think about me Or, baby, can you forget about me?
Please, please, don’t forget about me
Please, please, don’t forget about me
A curse, a cross
Costing me all costs
Knotting me up in all of your knots
An ache, a prayer
Worn from wear
Daring what you do not dare
I believe you can break me
But I’m saved for the one who saved me
We only look like young stars
Because you can’t see old scars
Tender in the places you touch
I’d offer you everything but I don’t have much Tell you the truth just to watch you blush
You can’t handle the hit so I hold the punch
I believe you can break me
But I’m saved for the one who saved me
We only look like young stars
Because you can’t see old scars
You won’t give me a reason to wait
And I’m starting to feel a little proud
I’m searching for somebody lost
When you’ve already been found
You’re waiting for the right mistake
But I’m not coming around
You’re waiting for a quiet day
But the world is just too loud
I believe you can break me
But I’m saved for the one who saved me We only look like young stars
Because you can’t see old scars
When you look in the mirror
Take stock of your soul
And when you hear my voice, remember
You ruined me whole
Don’t you dare sleep easy
And leave the sleepless nights to me
Let the world weigh you down
And, baby, when you think of me
I hope it ruins rock ’n’ roll
Regret me
Regretfully
When you look at her
Take stock of what you took from me
And when you see a ghost in the distance
Know I’m hanging over everything
Don’t you dare sleep easy
And leave the sleepless nights to me
Let the world weigh you down
And, baby, when you think of me
I hope it ruins rock ’n’ roll
Regret me
Regretfully
Regret me
Regretfully
Don’t you dare rest easy
And leave the rest of it to me
I want you to feel heavy
Regret setting me free
Regret me
I won’t go easily
Regret it
Regret saying no
Regret it
Regret letting me go
One day, you’ll regret it
I’ll make sure of it before I go
Don’t remember many midnights
Forgotten some of my best insights
Can’t recall some of the highest heights
But I’ve memorized you
Don’t remember many daybreaks
How many sunrises have come as I lay awake
Don’t dwell on my worst mistakes
But I always think of you
You’re the thing that’s crystal clear
The only thing that I hold dear
I live and die by if you’re near
All other memories disappear
Without you
Without you
Don’t remember how I was then
Can’t keep straight where I was when
What is my name, where have I been
Where did I start, where does it end
You’re the thing that’s crystal clear
The only thing that I hold dear
I live and die by if you’re near
All other memories disappear
Without you
Without you
Don’t remember who I used to be
Can’t recall who has hurt me
Forget the pain so suddenly
You’re the thing that’s crystal clear
The only thing that I hold dear
I live and die by if you’re near
All other memories disappear
Without you
Without you
I’m easy talk and cheap goodbyes
Second-rate in a first-class disguise
My heart sleeps soundly, don’t wake it
A hope like you could break it
I’m lost deep in crimes and vice
Can’t get to the table to grab the dice
My heart is weak, I can’t take it
A hope like you could break it
It doesn’t matter how hard I try
Can’t earn some things no matter why
My heart knows we’d never make it
A hope like you could break it
People say love changes you
As if change and love are easy to do
My heart is calling and I can’t shake it
But a hope like you could break it
Some things end before they start
The moment they form, they fall apart
My heart wants so badly just to say it
But a hope like you could break it
Told myself this story a thousand times
Can’t seem to break the wants free from my mind So much of my world goes unnamed
Some people can’t be tamed
But maybe I should stake my claim
Maybe I should claim my stake
I’ve heard some hopes are worth the break
Yeah, maybe I should stake my claim Maybe I should claim my stake
On the chance the hope is worth the break
When the seas are breaking
And the sails are shaking
When the captain’s praying
Here comes Aurora
Aurora, Aurora
When the lightning is cracking
And thunder is clapping
When the mothers are gasping
Here comes Aurora
Aurora, Aurora
When the wind is racing
And the storm is chasing
When even the preachers are pacing
Here comes Aurora
Aurora, Aurora
When I was drowning
Three sheets and counting
The skies cleared
And you appeared
And I said, “Here is my Aurora”
Aurora, Aurora
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