novelxo Chapter CHAPTER 59
Chapter 59
“We can’t, I can’t, you know that Any form of contraception is forbidden, Dylan, What would you do if we got pregnant? I frowned, I knew a guy who could help. He graduated last year, his job is to drive to and from the districts during trade. He tends to smuggle things in within reason.
“I can get a condom, maybe even the after pill!” I said with complete certainty in my words. “I can, and you know I can. No one has to know Nick, I don’t see why we can’t be each others first. If you don’t want to though I’d understand.” I couldn’t force him into it. Maybe he didn’t find me physically attractive. I mean he was boyish hot, I knew he was good looking for our age, and got a quite a few flirtatious glances, even from some lycans.
“It’s not that I don’t want too, you know if we are caught we will be lashed till we die, then we’d be forced to get married.” My head snapped up to him and the certainty his voice held. I wasn’t expecting him to say that. As my ca
gaze met his a deep red hugh took over his cheeks and he coughed a very awkward cough. “It’s just that I… erm… well if we get caught then we’re both screwed, and you’ve already dealt with more than enough for a
lifetime.”
“No pun intended.” I chuckled at his use of the word screwed. “We won’t get caught, but it will be difficult to get the house to ourselves again, today is kind of a one off.”
“My dad…” Oh yeah, that’s perfect. He told me a couple of days 50
about his dad. “He’s been assigned pack house duty next month. We’ll get two hours alone after school for a week.”
This could work, was I really going to lose my virginity to Nick? I never thought about it before but it makes total sense. We’d shared everything so far, I couldn’t see any problems with sharing this too. We were friends, we were already comfortable together, although we hadn’t exactly seen each other naked before, topless yeah due to the public lashings we’ve both received in the past, but not completely naked.
“So next month then?” He nodded nervously as he looked at me.
“Next month then.” We both sat there awkwardly as we waited for the other to ease the tension. Maybe we should start now. Share a kiss and test the feels a little bit.
“Should we like, hug? Or kiss?” I asked in an even more awkward fashion than asking for sex. We were both 15, we both knew the basics and sort of what to expect, and we both knew each other well, it was completely consensual on both parts, I thought it a good plan. Those mutts couldn’t and wouldn’t take everything after
all.
“Ok…” We leaned in after Nicks short reply and let our lips connect, it was awkward, and wet, very wet, but it wasn’t awful. It was just our first, it also marked the start of a 4 month friends with benefits situation. We had a good laugh about everything afterwards and remained really good friends. I couldn’t have asked for better in all honesty. He was respectful and I was too. It brought us closer but we both knew nothing else would happen. Everything was completely platonic between us.
Present day…
My body radiated a horrendous amount of pain by the time I regained consciousness. It was extremely late at night, or perhaps very early in the morning, I knew this to be so because darkness was all that came through the window, the same window that my head was coincidently facing. I was still on my stomach, my horribly
scarred back was covered with a large white sheet, I imagine it to be coated with antiseptic keeping my open wounds clean and creating the slightly soothing feeling that was coming from the cover.
A loud groan left my lips as I slowly lifted my head and moved my neck so that I was facing the opposite way, the ache in my neck was a very mild concern compared to everything else and just moving it slightly seemed to help ease it. I honestly didn’t expect to be this bad, I thought I’d feel a bit better after a sleep, I assumed I’d felt the worst of the agony while the punishment was being given out… that was not the case.
The pain my body was emitting currently was off the scale, it screamed at me, yelling at me to end my misery. I felt like id been hit with a truck, and I could only imagine what I looked like. I glanced around a little bit and noticed the button that calls for help, and contemplated pressing it, all I wanted was a cold glass of water, I thought against it though, right now I was alone for the first time in a month and it was quiet, my need for peace and solitude outweighed my need for fluid. My throat felt scratchy and raw from all the screaming I’d done, and I honestly didn’t even want to know what my forearms or my back looked like.
I was damaged… completely and phy