Chosen Novel

Chapter 0215

Dylan POV.

"Goddess give me strength..." I heard him mutter which hurt more than anything. I was beyond annoyed at him, I couldn't figure out why he had been so amazing to me, and yet all of a sudden, he wanted to see me suffer again. It really was true, all werewolves were the exact same, sadistic and narcissistic.

At least that's what I was thinking to myself, right up until Lewis gently grabbed my shoulders and met my eyes, he sighed before gently yet firmly pushing his lips against mine and connecting them.

Disbelief clouded me as I stood there standing as still as a statue, my eyes wide and my breath hitched. I just stood there, I couldn't quite comprehend what Lewis had actually done but damn, did it feel incredible. I've only ever kissed two people before, the kiss I shared with Nick was our first ever kiss, so it was sloppy and awkward, and the one time I kissed king josh willingly, was to stop him from sexually assaulting me, every other one of his kisses were always forced and rough. Kissing Lewis however, was euphoric. It was gentle and sincere, he didn't force me to do anything, he never had.

A small hum of contentment left him, but as soon as it sounded he opened his eyes in shock. He then pushed me off him and took a step back wards, his hand quickly went over his mouth in pure surprise and he refused to meet my gaze, all the while My own fingers gently touched my bottom lip as I savoured the feeling of his chaste kiss...

Wait, he had kissed me. Like actually kissed me, it wasn't an attack and most importantly, it really wasn't unpleasant. Lewis was gentle and I truly did enjoy it even if I didn't show I did, a small smile played on my mouth as I looked at him, I wanted to do it again, i wanted to wrap my arms around his neck, and I wanted to hold him tighter than I had ever done, I wanted to feel him hug me close

and I wanted him to make me feel safe, but he didn't touch me again. He took a step back and shook his head averting my gaze quickly.

"Oh fuck! Dylan, I'm sorry, I'm so sorry." He looked distraught at his actions and his head hung low. "I shouldn't have done that." Strangely enough, I didn't mind his advances, I was just still reeling over the fact that he had actually kissed me. I couldn't for the life of me understand how he was not disgusted by me. I was a far cry from being considered pretty, I always had bags under my eyes recently, I was most definitely suffering from post traumatic stress disorder, I was thinner than a skeleton and to add the cherry on top, I was completely covered in horrendous ugly scars, I didn't think anyone had the ability to fall for me.

"Its ok..." he took another step back when I took a step forward towards him. Oh God...Don't walk away now! Please don't walk away now. He could yell at me or even call me disgusting if he wanted to, but I wouldn't cope if he just walked away from me.

"Its not ok..." He cut me off and took another step away from me. Was it not good? Was he playing a game. "I'm so so sorry, I just... What Josh did to you... and then I decided to just... I'm really sorry." He shook his head one last time before turning around. The man really was going to just run off on me, he was going to leave me stood there wondering what the hell I did wrong. I had to stop him.

"Lewis... please, Just stop and look at me... Please?!" He stopped himself from bolting away there and then and decided to do as I asked. His reluctant eyes met mine and nothing but guilt and regret clouded them. "Did you mean it? What you said before... did you mean it?" I think my question sort of caught him off guard as he stared at me with slightly wider eyes then he previously had. "I won't hold you to anything you did or said, and I don't know why you want to remind yourself of everything, but I do know that I trust you, I trust you more than anyone, and I know you would never intentionally hurt me. So if you want to remember things, then I'm sure you have a reason for..." I was going to say i understood him, and that he had to see me as damaged in order for him to treat me like an actual human being, maybe we could just go back to how we were before, but Lewis cut

me off again with a sigh, he allowed his large hand to cup my face and I as usual involuntarily snuggled into it.

"I have to remind myself, because otherwise I would have kissed you weeks ago..." Thinking back, there had actually been a couple of times when we came close, but that was before king Josh decided to... well, it was before certain events happened. "I really like you, Dylan, and I've chosen you as my mate, I know I shouldn't have, and I will never expect you to accept me as that, but I have to remind myself of everything you have witnessed, of everything you have felt, because otherwise I will end up being really selfish with you."