Chasing The Broken CEO

He wanted to spend some time with me and I can't deny that I also wanted the same thing. I can't help but to feel confused as to why we were doing this. My mind kept telling me how wrong it was but my heart told me differently. Why is it more satisfying to do what is deemed illegal and wrong?

We continued to walk while holding each others hands in silence. We only stopped when we reached the familiar rock formations. I sighed heavily, remembering how I cried that day as the pain consumed me... I literally had a breakdown under the rain that day.

I closed my eyes and tried to erase that memory replaying like a flashback in my head. It was bringing back the pain and I didn't want to welcome it. Not right now. Not when Evan was with me. Not when I want to be happy. Not right now... I opened my eyes and I met his concerned eyes immediately. My lips parted as I felt drowning into his gaze.

He's still the same. The man who could be ruthless most of the time and sometimes could be soft... soft just like now. He was looking at me as if he was trying to memorize every single detail of my face. For a moment, I saw a glimpse of sadness in his eyes but it went away and all the unnamed emotions were the only ones remained.

If only I could name all these emotions I could see in his eyes, I won't hesitate to name it all as I wanted to understand why he has those. But I can't do it right now because I can't even handle the emotions I was feeling inside... these emotions inside of me were like a wildfire spreading into my entire being in just a swift move. My chest felt so heavy, and my heart could not stop from beating loudly at this time.

Whenever our eyes meet like this, my knees go weak... I felt like I was a candle that was slowly melting... My entire being was getting weak that it almost wanted to surrender.

"I'm sorry if I took so long," he said and then squeezed my hand. "I'm sorry that you had to suffer like that..."

I gasped as I didn't expect him to say those words. I shook my head. He didn't really need to apologize for what he did. I finally understood that he only needed to do it in order to protect me, and kept me safe from all his enemies. Even though it brought misfortune to me and to my family... even though it made me think differently and made me feel worst, what he did was still the right thing to do.

And I know that I would do the same if I were on his position. I'm sure of it...

"You only did the right thing..." I said and gave him a smile. "You saved me from a possible danger, Evan. Thank you for doing that."

I heard his ragged breathing. He interlocked our fingers that made my heart beat as if it was on a marathon. I looked down on our hands. I know it was kind of funny but my hand fits perfectly on his big but soft hand. It was like my hand was a missing piece of puzzle that completed it... Now it looked great and satisfying.

Oh, what am I thinking?

"Did I lose you, Risha?" he mumbled softly.

"H-Huh?" I looked up to meet his gaze.

The salted air was gently blowing his hair that almost hid his eyes but he was still staring at me intently.

"Did I lose you? He asked me again that made my heart pound aggressively.

I blinked twice. My lips parted when I finally understood what he meant by his question. I tried to come up with the right words to say but to be honest, my mind was tangled that it could no longer think of anything.

"I don't get it... Why are you asking me that, Evan?" I managed to fake a laugh and then gazed at the sea instead, too afraid that if I won't look away then my heart would just explode because of the heavy emotions he was giving me. "The beach looked even satisfying because of the fine weather though..."

I breathed heavily and tried to pull my hand off his grip slowly. He didn't complain and released my hand in silence. I swallowed hard and walked toward the rock formation. As I continued to walk, I felt the cold waters on my feet. I let out a heavy sigh and gathered all my strength. I looked back at him and gave him a smile. A sincere smile... as I hid my hands on my back and as I let the waves crawl into my feet, I smiled at him with utmost sincerity.

"You have nothing to worry about. Whatever happened in the past will only be a memory," I cheered him up and bit my lower lip.

You were doing the right thing, Nathalie. Don't let this man feel the guilt just because things had to happen negatively in order for him to save you. It wasn't his fault at all. He just needed to act accordingly to protect me and himself. He did not respond and continued to gaze at me. I pursed my lips and glanced at the sea instead. The air blew and I inhaled its freshness. I started walking slowly and felt the white sands and the waves on my feet. As the air continued to blow my long hair and my clothes, I can't help but to observe the beauty of this beach.

I didn't really get a chance to admire it before but now, I think this was one of the beautiful beaches I've seen in the Philippines. I sighed as I felt the cold waves crawling into my feet again.

But then, I knew that Evan was still watching me. That thought made my heart pound aggressively.

However, I don't want to feel the negativity right now. All I wanted was to enjoy this place and to seize the moment... this moment with him while I still have the chance. I remembered myself craving for his presence back then, and it was funny that it didn't change at all... I'm still that girl who craves for his presence no matter how I try to deny it.

And I told myself that it is okay. This is fine... to be happy with the same person you wish to be with before and to feel the familiar emotions toward him... to be eaten up by it, and to let it consume me in all ways.

It is okay to give in sometimes. For all we know, it is temporary. This is all temporary... A one fleeting moment.

I turned to him and gave him a playful smile. I already walked that far and he was still in the same place, standing like a perfect model while watching me. He's truly a good looking one! He looked stunning even if the air continued to blow his hair and clothes, while his hands were inside the pockets of his pants.

This must be my reward after a series of storm that landed in my life. He was my reward that I've redeemed and would expire very soon. And I thought that it would be better to seize this time while I can.

I waved my hand at him. He shook his head in a cocky way and smirked that made my heart skip a beat. That felt literally like an old time!

My heart could not even stop from its fast beating when he started walking towards me. He walked like a fashion model in a runway. It was like time began to run slow and my body started to freeze up as I watched him getting near me... I can't do a single movement but God knows how I want to welcome him in my arms and smile at him.

I pouted my lips. Really, Nathalie? Sometimes, I can't believe myself for having that kind of thought. Well, Evan seemed to have screwed my mind ever since the day we met.

He slowly made a few steps closer to me that removed the distance between us. I swallowed hard when he stood up in front of me. His hand made a fast move and pulled me closer to him. My eyes widened and my heart can no longer calm down.

Damn it, Zendejas! What are you trying to do? Do you want me to die? Those questions started to whirl through my head and as much as I wanted to voice them out, I can't seem to do it because of the sudden fear that ate me up. My heart felt like it was running a race and I get so scared that he might hear it beating so loud right now.

He was still looking at me as if that was the only thing he could do... and as if he knows what his eyes were wanting to see, and no other things could ever make him look away. Shit...

"If I get the luck to fix everything and if I ask you again to marry me, will you still say yes?" he asked curiously.

My jaw literally dropped.

What did he say? I tried to fake a laugh but damn it, my knees were already trembling because of the mixed emotions that ate me up. I shook my head, trying to compose myself. "Seriously, Evan?"

"Seriously, Risha..." he stated, more like an assurance.

"Our company is failing. It is not going to be beneficial. You're just going to waste your effort and money," I managed to say while shaking my head. "There are a lot of big companies out there... a family who has a daughter that you can marry instead. In fact, I am afraid that my father won't agree anymore."

His forehead started creasing, like it was telling me that he didn't like what I just said. Well, I am right... It's not going to be beneficial and what should I give him in return? We don't have the big amount of funds and we're only waiting for the company to be sold. I am certain that having a deal with us is just a waste of time for him and he needs to realize it. That's how fixed marriage works. There should be a mutual gain.

"You don't have to feel guilty about it. I already moved on..." I added to reassure him.

"So what if your company is failing? I'm not really after your company." He snorted grumpily. Oh my goodness! I think he just activated his cranky side!

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"I said you don't have to feel guilty, alright? You are already forgiven!" I laughed a bit.

"Dimwit..."

"What?" my forehead creased. My mood suddenly changed because of what he said. "You know what, Evan? You're not responsible for making me feel-"

He shut me off with a kiss. My eyes automatically closed as I felt his lips brushing passionately to mine. All I heard was the loud beating of my heart. He was kissing me so gently. His lips made a graceful move and parted mine, while my heart was having a race inside my chest.

I felt dazed for a moment but after a few seconds, I can't help but to respond to his kiss. I've tasted his soft lips and the urge to suck it made me go crazy.

Fuck. Please let the time stop. Let us seize this moment. Evan snaked his arm on my waist, while his other hand caressed my jaw. My hand suddenly move and went to the back of his head. His hand went to my nape, and deepen our kiss.

I missed him... so damn much. I can really feel how I longed for him and I don't understand why I am feeling this way towards him... We didn't have that deep kind of relationship. We were just business partners!

He poured soft kisses on my lips. I only opened my eyes when he pulled away. We're both catching our breaths.

I tried to find the answers in my mind. Why did we do it? It was not suppose to happen... I swallowed hard... this isn't right.

"Your company has nothing to do with this, baby." he muttered softly.

"O-okay..." what, Nathalie?

"I'll fix everything first," he said and then caressed my cheek. "Then I'll do everything to win you again." He chuckled, "This chase will not end, Rish..." Shit... Shit!

My heart is pounding aggressively and I felt like getting deaf because it's getting louder this time.

"W-what do you mean?" I asked, confused.

He kissed my lips once again. It feels surreal and if I am dreaming, please... please, don't wake me up...

"You made me nuts, baby. So, I'll chase you until you accept me, again..." he said that made me gasp for some air.