Broken Vows

The feeling of finally being with this sweet girl is something indescribable. I had seen her so often in my dreams. I had even been struck with visions of her when I was wide awake. I saw her with her father, and I could see how loved she was. I could also see he was hiding things from her.

The visions were occasionally accompanied by a new voice. She was just as sweet as Kay, and it didn’t take me long to realize that it was Kay’s mother sending me the visions. She was watching her child from that unknown void. She only spoke to me a few times, telling me to please protect her baby. The other voice was always with her and would warn her not to say too much to me, that things had to happen in the proper order, and if I messed this up, they could never fix it this time. Kay needed to grow and learn things on her own time.

I hate riddles but just being with this girl gives my broken heart a sense of peace. I only want to protect her. If I could take her from this place, I would, but according to the voice, things just have to play out, and I need to be patient. I have spent my life just trying to be patient.

While I try my best to protect Kay from the horrible man everyone calls Boss, I’m just biding time. I have seen enough of what will happen next, and I know it all has to happen the way I have seen it. Some things can be changed, but others must play out. Sometimes I see several versions of what will happen depending on the path we choose; everything is calculated.

Kay is as happy as anyone can be living the way she has for the last four years as a prisoner, but in all that time, she is kind and forgiving. I don’t know how she can be so kind, but she is. It isn’t in her to turn cruel or hateful.

When Kay is caught in the Boss’s office, my heart breaks. I tried to free her from the torcher and pain he inflicted on her. It only ended with me being beaten and thrown from the camp. I woke up in a human hospital. They kept thinking I was mauled by a bear and had no idea how I was still alive.

The only thing that kept me alive was getting back to Kay. When I finally escaped from that stupid hospital, Kay and the rogues had left. I didn’t think I would ever find Kay. I wanted a vision to give me some clue about what had become of her. You can imagine my surprise when I finally saw Kay in my dreams again, and I figured out her location and that she had shifted for the first time. I missed her birthday. That hurt worse than anything. I was also shocked when she found her mate there as well. When I figured out who Aaron was and where his pack was, I started there as soon as possible. It took me far too long, but I found her.

Holding her in my arms was the sweetest feeling in the world. She is safe and happy for the first time. That’s when the voice decided to tell me now was the time to tell Kay what I am and who she is and that that awful man that loved to hurt her is her father. I wanted to argue. How could I break her heart like that? Why do I have to ruin her happiness? I still don’t know who her mother is, but I have a good idea. Sitting Kay down and telling her what I knew was one of the hardest things I have ever done. I was so relieved when her mate Aaron was there to help her through the pain of learning what I needed to tell her. Talking with her, we pieced together that Kay is Rana’s granddaughter. I knew she was just from looking at her; the resemblance was uncanny. I hope I am strong enough for everything that is to come from the things Kay learns from them.

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At first, Kay meeting her grandparents was tricky, and I couldn’t believe Rana was being so selfish. She is a far cry from the girl I knew.

“Rana, are you going to deny what is right in front of you.” I hiss at my friend. “She has been through so much, and she is stronger than anyone I know. She has a magic that I have never felt before. I don’t know what it is, but I need to find out, and she will need you as well. She needs her family, and you need to tell her what happened. I don’t even know what happened.”

“You don’t understand she will hate us. She could never forgive us for what happened. We can’t even forgive ourselves.” Rana begins to cry as we stand in the middle of the dark woods. I followed her out here to try and talk some sense into her. She has been hiding what she is for so long. I could curse Eric for letting her live this way. She has convinced her pack that she is a wolf living a life based on a lie. It has taken a toll on her, and it shows.

“Rana, it is time to come clean with the truth. Here and now. tell me everything.” I’m more sympathetic with her as she breaks down before me. “We are sisters, and if I know Kay at all, she will listen and understand. That girl is special and needs to know where she comes from and why her parents died. She needs that peace. Don’t keep that from her. We can make things right.”

I wish I knew then what we would be making right, but I soon found out. It didn’t take long to learn what we would be facing. Talking with Kay, I try to teach her to use her magic, and she did the impossible. She found in me the broken fragments of my magic and my soul. I didn’t know how she was doing it. It was like being filled with love and light. I could forgive myself for Serena for the first time in two hundred years. I didn’t feel like everything that happened was my fault. All I felt was the love Serena had for me and the love I have for her. I could feel how much Kay loved me and the feeling of family. My magic began to return like a slow trickle, and I had it. The hope Death had talked about so long ago, I truly found hope for the first time in all these years. My heart was full of it.

When Rana and Eric found us the next day in the library telling Kay everything they knew, I was so proud of Kay. She could do what I couldn’t have done. She willingly forgave them. She was loved and knew her mother and father had loved her. She knew Seth was a broken man. She feared him, but she still forgave her grandparents. Kay is stronger than anyone I have known. This girl is special. She has proven that time and time again; she is the hope I was always meant to find. I never expected it to be a person; I thought it was just something I needed to find in myself.

I know now that Kay’s journey will be much more complicated than I ever imagined. I wish she could just live a quiet and happy life, but this changes everything. I beg the voice to tell me what will happen, and I see several outcomes, but I want to see none of them. She will have to face him, and I know I will need to be stronger for Kay. I need to find help.

That monster of a man Seth finds Kay, before I have the chance to stop it. He even shoots her with a silver bullet. I can’t believe he nearly killed her. That can’t be his goal. Kay tells me how he vanishes in smoke, and my heart drops.

She needs to figure things out on her own you can’t tell her everything until she figures it out. You have to be patient. Kay’s mother is in my head again, and I could cry just knowing there is nothing I can do to help Kay more in this. I led her to the book that holds the history of that day, and while it is only half right, I know the story stuck with Kay. It has been consuming me as well. I know he is truly behind what is happening, and Kay will have to be the one to face him. I don’t know how this girl could stop that man and do what I couldn’t.

You will see. She was made for this. Just let things play out the way they need to; please, for all of us trapped here, just let this play out. This time it’s the nameless voice talking to me, and I hate that she is right. I have to trust this, and I have to have hope.