novelxo Chapter 0181
Chapter 0181
Sydney's POV
+25 BONUS
Gently, Mark moved closer to the baby cot and lowered Aiden who had fallen asleep in his arms I to it.
He covered him well with the blankets and still patted him for a while before he pulled away.
He flexed his shoulders and rolled his neck and arm, that must have gone sore from carrying Alden for so
long.
Then he casually perched at the foot of the bed, his hands briefly grazed my feet before he placed his hands on his thighs.
"Why are you so keen on finding Lucas, though?" He asked as he faced the pole that was at the foot of the bed. He turned to me and his shoulders lifted in the briefest shrug, "I mean, it's been so long since he contacted you or tried to reach out to you. He hasn't made any attempt since he left."
"You can not say that," I felt the stupid urge to defend him and I did. "What if something happened to him and he's unable to reach out to anyone? What if he's scared if reaching out?" I shrugged, "There are lots of what ifs, you know."
Mark bobbed his head in a nod, "you're right. I agree with you on that aspect. There are always lots of what ifs but not for a man that's madly in love with a woman. Trust me when I tell you very clearly that that man," he mouth twisted bitterly, "my uncle, does not love you anymore. No matter the circumstances, no matter how high and disciplined a man's sense of reasoning is, when he is in love with a woman, at some point, all reasoning is unconsciously thrown in the air and they follow their heart which is always to go to that woman they can't ever get enough of."
I managed a smile as I looked at him, trying to hide the pain that came whenever I remembered Lucas. You seem well versed in this topic, Mr Torres," I teased
He shrugged, his expression still serious. "I guess I am. And I'm sure that Lucas doesn't love you anymore, Sydney. I'm not saying this because I want you for myself or anything...
I blushed. Mark had really grown unashamed in declaring his love for me. Sometimes, it felt odd. And I just choose to not acknowledge it.
"I'm saying this because I care for you," he continued. He took my hand that was closest to him gently. And I don't want you to get hurt more than you already are. If Lucas loved you, he'd spend every of his free second, watching you vigilantly and preventing any male from approaching you and lurking around
you."
I laughed at this. "What's he? A private investigator? Come on, a man, even though he's in love, has got his own life to live."
He lifted his shoulders in a shrug, a smug smile dancing across his lip. "I know but it's our natural instinct, it's present in every man's DNA."
"Ofcourse, just like you, always appearing around me uninvited," I couldn't help this thought in my head.
However, I chose to keep it to myself and just nodded at his preach?
Forget the fact that I had just teased him about him insisting on loving me a few minutes ago, I always:
Chapter 0181
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tried my damndest to avoid any conversation that dwelled around Mark's love for me.
Our relationship had grown into something beautiful as I've found a friend In him, a true friend but at the same time, it was delicate, like an egg. Any slight dent could ruin it and cause it to crash.
arms
I sighed and pulled my hands from his. "You're right though, but..." I trailed off as I wrapped my around me, my gaze unnecessarily gliding toward Aiden in his cot Andi felt Mark's gaze follow me. "But Lucas is very important to me," I kept my gaze trained on him as I spoke and if Mark felt anything; hurt, disappointment? It didn't show because he had his emotions on check.
"Lucas isn't just a boyfriend," I continued, "Or my baby's father. He's more than that to me..." I trailed off, my brows creasing deeply as I tried to put what Lucas was to me, all that he meant to me. "Lucas made me. H-he made me into what I am today, Mark." I shook my head and looked away as tears pricked my eyes.
No, they didn't roll down my cheeks. I didn't let them. I never let it. I stopped shedding tears over him a long time ago. Now that Aiden was here, I needed to be strong for the both of us.
I unwrapped my arms from around myself and dropped them to my lap. I looked down at my hands as I started again, in a small voice, "I need answers, Mark. I don't want to spend more time guessing. assuming and regretting." A painful laughter bubbled up my throat, "I don't want to keep making silly excuses for him. That's not me.." I shook my head and whispered, but loud enough for Mark to hear me, Even if he doesn't love me anymore, I want him to say it to my face. I need him to clearly tell me where we stand!" I looked up. My voice quivered as I spoke, "we can't just end again and leave everything in a blur, we can't end and spend the rest if our lives wondering what might have or might have not, we can't leave the puzzle unsolved and unfinished, wondering...wondering and wondering."