Chapter 15 - You need to go to Ohio.
Raina Williams.
"He has some nerve." Grayson spat without remorse while pouring a glass of red wine for us both. Instead of clubbing we
decided to stay at my apartment because he noticed how low, I was. In fact, I don't know how to feel about it everything.
"I just wanna go home Gray." I sighed. "I need to be with my parents and my brother." I said absent-minded. Gray handed me a
glass as he sat next to me on the leather couch. "You have a very funny way of dealing with stress and anxiety my dear Raina."
He sipped on his wine. He looked so carefree, i guess our relationship went from Lawyer and Clients son to close friends after he
told me he was gay. I can not believe I was even begining to think maybe something could happen between us.
It's good those thoughts didn't go too far.
"Shut up, Gray." I playfully hit his chest making him pout.
"No don't mind me... I'm just saying, you need to go to Ohio and think about this and everything..."
"He is getting married." I added emptying the contents in my glass, i needed that.
"Raina, you need to get over him. Please girl...this relationship is so unhealthy."
"I know-"
"So why do you let everything he does affect you ?"
"Uhm-uh-well.." I mumbled.
"Babe it's time you moved on. This time for real and that means no absolutely no sleeping with him. He is using your Raina, he is
a manipulative bastard, okay ?"
The truth hurts.
"Uhm yes." I snirveled as tears rolled down my cheeks.
"For once let yourself cry, let it out. You cry, let it out and move on." He said pulling me into a hug.
"I-i-feel...used..." I cried on his chest, i never let anyone see me cry but I couldn't act strong anymore. I couldn't act like I was
okay, I couldn't keep myself together...I was tired. I felt like a used toilet paper, with no worth. He made me feel that way, all the
time.
"There there there.." Gray said patting me on my back.
"Someone out there is meant for you."
"So where is he ?" I raised my head. "Where is he ? I hate this...I hate feeling like this. I hate Angelo AND I WILL HAVE TO SEE
HIM FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE BECAUSE OF THE KIDS. HE IS SO HAPPY WHILE I'M HERE SULKING...GRAYSON YOU
ARE RIGHT. I DON'T KNOW.........WHY I LET MYSELF GET USED. HE ALWAYS USES ME, A MONTH AGO I THOUGHT I
HAD EVERYTHING UNDER CONTROL BUT HE JUST HAD TO COME AND GET INSIDE MY PANTS...and I let him." I yelled
but the last past I said it under my breath more to myself.
This was the worst feeling but I felt much better when I talked about it.
"Yes, Raina you are worth more than this." Gray encouraged my ranting like a psycho but truth is shouting, screaming and crying
sure made me feel better. I had this anger buried inside and this was my way of releasing it. I need to remove all this negativity,
that way I have more space for positive emotions.
"He is a dog." I said grabbing the whole bottle of wine, i felt a bit tipsy from crying or was it the wine-
"Yes, he is nothing but a dog, Raina." Gray said with sass. "You know if I was with him right now, i would.." I paused gulping
down the red hot liquid. " I would tell him that the sex sucked and and and he is quite horrendous at making love." I had no idea
where I got the sudden confidence but I liked this...
"I like this Raina alot." Gray added.
"Yes, I like this Raina too." I muttered.
"I'm done being nice Raina, who gets stomped all over. I'm done being nice hoping one day he will notice me. You know Gray I
always had that glimmer of hope that one day he will fall in love with me." I suddenly laughed. "Who the hell was I KIDDING I
MEAN, HE DOESN'T CARE AT ALL. HE DOESN'T WANT ME, HE WANTS YASMINE YAYA WHATEVER, CAN YOU BELIEVE
HE CALLS HER YAYA. HE MUST REALLY LOVE HER HUH...THEY CAN SPEAK THEIR FUCKING DUTCH TOGETHER AND
FUCKING GET MARRIED IN AMSTERDAM, RIGHT... WELL I WANT A FREAKING BRITISH LAD TOO. WELL HOW WOULD
HE FEEL IF I DIDN'T MARRY HIM BECAUSE HIS NOT AMERICAN I MEAN, ANGELO LE ROUX IS A FUCKING BASTARD
DOUCHEBAG ARSEHOLE." I gulped down some more of this wine.
"That's the spirit Raina let it out my friend." Gray chuckled.
"NEVER AGAIN WILL I LET HIM FUCK ME. LET HIM FUCK YAYA.." I faked a Dutch accent. "HE IS SUCH A MALE WHORE
SOMEONE NEEDS TO CUT OF HIS DICK AND THAT WON'T BE ME BECAUSE I DON'T EVER WANT TO SEE HIM IT
WHATEVER. I DON'T CARE...I DON'T HAVE A CARE AT ALL IN THE WORLD. I WILL TEACH ASHTON TO BE A
GENTLEMAN NEVER TO BE LIKE HIS FATHER. HE PROBABLY FAILED AT CHIVALRY CLASS." I stammered falling on my
butt but luckily the wine bottle didn't break.
"Chivalry class, good one Raina." Gray laughed.
"Okay whatever but you know what i mean smarty pants." I giggled throwing a cushion his way.
"Yeah yeah...now get up." Gray murmured helping me up from the floor. "You have had enough of this..." He took the wine bottle
away from me making me whine.
"Remember you have an early flight to Ohio the place of fixing Raina's broken hearts."
"Shut up." I snarled.
"No worries, I will sleep over so can drive you to the airport." He smiled. " I got an A+ in Chivalry class. "
"Stop making fun of me." I frowned like a kid crossing my arms.
"I'm not making fun of you."
"You are."
"Not."
"Are."
"Not."
"Fine, Mrs. Chivalry." He said making us both laugh. He had a way of making me feel better, my life revolved around Angelo my
best friend was his sister, i guess Gray was the only person who wasn't attached to the Le Roux family.